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visiting mom was good. weather was absolutely beautiful. then we drove back. and she stayed another week.
i love my mom bless her heart, but DAMN! i can only get so much mom ya know? it was a relief to just be by myself. i dont really think it was HER, she came up here the same time i started get anxious about my court fees and other things. i really just wanted to be by myself and i think she was just trying to help.
ive never been this stressed and anxious in my life. my tummy's always in knots, ive lost my appetite along with weight. my mind is alwas spinning and it seems like its neverending.
not to mention i believe someone is now reading my journal whom i really dont feel comfortable with them doing so. this may have caused this person to make a decision about me in which im fucked up the ass.
guess i have to watch what i say now.
isnt it ironic? u get the journal to sort problems and whatever....but u freak when someone reads it since its posted all online?
makes me wonder how much this person knows now. its definitely gunna be kinda awkward around them now.
ya know, im looking back and dont really see anything horrible written that i actually wouldnt mind them reading i guess. so i guess all is good. just gotta watch myself now.
even tho i shouldnt have to...
but time to go. dont feel like typing no more.....
hope all is well in journal land.
i love my mom bless her heart, but DAMN! i can only get so much mom ya know? it was a relief to just be by myself. i dont really think it was HER, she came up here the same time i started get anxious about my court fees and other things. i really just wanted to be by myself and i think she was just trying to help.
ive never been this stressed and anxious in my life. my tummy's always in knots, ive lost my appetite along with weight. my mind is alwas spinning and it seems like its neverending.
not to mention i believe someone is now reading my journal whom i really dont feel comfortable with them doing so. this may have caused this person to make a decision about me in which im fucked up the ass.
guess i have to watch what i say now.
isnt it ironic? u get the journal to sort problems and whatever....but u freak when someone reads it since its posted all online?
makes me wonder how much this person knows now. its definitely gunna be kinda awkward around them now.
ya know, im looking back and dont really see anything horrible written that i actually wouldnt mind them reading i guess. so i guess all is good. just gotta watch myself now.
even tho i shouldnt have to...
but time to go. dont feel like typing no more.....
hope all is well in journal land.