breath in every little peice of me
it really amazes me how I can have so much hate for one person. I'm not a hateful person, I mean well. I guess it is just the "Me being misunderstood" aspect of thingsthat pisses me off so bad. This is were my confusions come from, I wish I could get things of my chest and just go up to the girl and tell her what a horrible person she is. But something is just telling me either, she aren't worth it or my time of day isn't worth her. Either way, she sucks. I try and forget about it and the hate that burns from within....but there I go being selfish agian. I don't know why I think about it or the feelings so much, maybe it's becuase I see this 'girl' *cringes* everyday, Maybe it's the Past issues, or maybe it's just me targeting my anger on One thing, "It". So yet agian Im confused. I see her everyday and my fist clinch when she walks by and my brain just shuts down and that is when I wish Killing wasn't a crime. Well....That was a little harsh, but you get the jist of things. O'well, what can I do...I guess what I've been doing, avoiding her.
sigh
Your heart is in your throat and I'm speaking my mind
Besides that, school school school. I love it. What more can I say. Other than the fact I'm grateful to have an awesome Algebra ll teacher. I need all the help in math I can. Which boggles my mind. Every class I am passing with flying colors and some. But math, never did and probably never will get the shit. I guess you could say that isn't the best approach and my dad says to practice what isn't the easiest and to focus on what comes 'Un-natural'. In agree-ance of course. Like english, phew, English and Newspaper ( writing in general and reading are just awesome and I enjoy them both so much) Maybe that is why I am so good when it comes to these things. I have no clue. It is really discouraging to understand and be a fast learner in everything and then math comes along and kicks my ass. Who cares.
Ya part of me left with you
My dad. Jesus Mary and Joseph, my dad. He emailed me out of the blue. *SHOCK* I don't really know what motivated him to do so but I'm certainly not complaining...damn. It was rather funny that he titled it "To my astranged duaghter" Which in all reality was true. I haven't talked to him sense the end of June. I always feel really bad about not contacting him and it is even crazier when I visit him. unless you have a devorced family and a dad you see once a year...You wouldn't possibly understand how hard it is to get to know eachother all over agian in the time of 3 weeks, at the most sometimes I don't even know where to start. It sucks and familys should stay together, so cliche. I hope He doesn't have another kid with his wife of a year. I already have 7 siblings, 5 half, 1 biological, and 1 step sister. It's crazy and the birthday managing is unreal. But whatever he does, I hope he is happy, he is the best man I know. As well As the best dad I know...
And one of these days i won't be afriad of staying with you
Im such a happy girl all in all. Friends are great and my love is even better. I love this feeling and I'm going to do everything in my power to keep it this way. 2nd times a charm and the first time was well...A BIG WASTE OF TIME. you hear me? But that has nothing to do with anything anymore. I guess I should just keep rambling on about everything and anything. I love how I was doinglaundry today and hated the fact that I had so many articles of clothing and then hated the fact that i didn't have enough. Grr...I hate mixed feeeelings and mixed emotions. As we all know the drama and Giere's classes, o well shit happens. I hope he is betetr thouhg, he owes me a god damn press pass! So I am in the process of downloading The Doors greates album Cd. And boy am I anxious. This entry was so organized and pretty, then..I got lazy. I have so much frigen homework it's not even funny. *luaghs* I really miss a certain someone. Nicole. I miss you so much and I know your reasding this. You were the only one that got me through Ocala and the only one that truly made me laugh. I miss you and I'm coming to visit, you whatch out. This weekend was preety cool. Jeremy got his new apartment in Jefferson's common off bruce B Downs. Pretty nifty, It's basically a college apartment housing dealy, and the parties there were...well...unique. There were drunk people golfing by the lake and some people just walking around (more like stumbling around) and I dunno, It was just funny. Rickie made me laugh majority of the night, iside jokes and cute faces are the best.
I, hold my breath and count to ten, I've been waiting for a chance to let you in, ther goes your chance, and thank god you took it in.
Homework, Bath and feeding the cats are next in my list. O yeah, and studying for my dreaded Math test. and maybe to write about the things I'll never know.
I didn't notice
But I didn't care
I tried being honest
But that lead me nowhere
I watched the station
Saw the bus pulling through
And I don't mind saying
A part of me left with you
You're the only one that leaves me completely breathless.
sigh
Your heart is in your throat and I'm speaking my mind
Besides that, school school school. I love it. What more can I say. Other than the fact I'm grateful to have an awesome Algebra ll teacher. I need all the help in math I can. Which boggles my mind. Every class I am passing with flying colors and some. But math, never did and probably never will get the shit. I guess you could say that isn't the best approach and my dad says to practice what isn't the easiest and to focus on what comes 'Un-natural'. In agree-ance of course. Like english, phew, English and Newspaper ( writing in general and reading are just awesome and I enjoy them both so much) Maybe that is why I am so good when it comes to these things. I have no clue. It is really discouraging to understand and be a fast learner in everything and then math comes along and kicks my ass. Who cares.
Ya part of me left with you
My dad. Jesus Mary and Joseph, my dad. He emailed me out of the blue. *SHOCK* I don't really know what motivated him to do so but I'm certainly not complaining...damn. It was rather funny that he titled it "To my astranged duaghter" Which in all reality was true. I haven't talked to him sense the end of June. I always feel really bad about not contacting him and it is even crazier when I visit him. unless you have a devorced family and a dad you see once a year...You wouldn't possibly understand how hard it is to get to know eachother all over agian in the time of 3 weeks, at the most sometimes I don't even know where to start. It sucks and familys should stay together, so cliche. I hope He doesn't have another kid with his wife of a year. I already have 7 siblings, 5 half, 1 biological, and 1 step sister. It's crazy and the birthday managing is unreal. But whatever he does, I hope he is happy, he is the best man I know. As well As the best dad I know...
And one of these days i won't be afriad of staying with you
Im such a happy girl all in all. Friends are great and my love is even better. I love this feeling and I'm going to do everything in my power to keep it this way. 2nd times a charm and the first time was well...A BIG WASTE OF TIME. you hear me? But that has nothing to do with anything anymore. I guess I should just keep rambling on about everything and anything. I love how I was doinglaundry today and hated the fact that I had so many articles of clothing and then hated the fact that i didn't have enough. Grr...I hate mixed feeeelings and mixed emotions. As we all know the drama and Giere's classes, o well shit happens. I hope he is betetr thouhg, he owes me a god damn press pass! So I am in the process of downloading The Doors greates album Cd. And boy am I anxious. This entry was so organized and pretty, then..I got lazy. I have so much frigen homework it's not even funny. *luaghs* I really miss a certain someone. Nicole. I miss you so much and I know your reasding this. You were the only one that got me through Ocala and the only one that truly made me laugh. I miss you and I'm coming to visit, you whatch out. This weekend was preety cool. Jeremy got his new apartment in Jefferson's common off bruce B Downs. Pretty nifty, It's basically a college apartment housing dealy, and the parties there were...well...unique. There were drunk people golfing by the lake and some people just walking around (more like stumbling around) and I dunno, It was just funny. Rickie made me laugh majority of the night, iside jokes and cute faces are the best.
I, hold my breath and count to ten, I've been waiting for a chance to let you in, ther goes your chance, and thank god you took it in.
Homework, Bath and feeding the cats are next in my list. O yeah, and studying for my dreaded Math test. and maybe to write about the things I'll never know.
I didn't notice
But I didn't care
I tried being honest
But that lead me nowhere
I watched the station
Saw the bus pulling through
And I don't mind saying
A part of me left with you
You're the only one that leaves me completely breathless.