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i think maybe because it's 55 degrees out, but for whatever reason, i'm in a really unusually happy mood. (lack of angst!)
today was monday, and i was functioning on two hours of sleep by my own fault. but i had a good day - history curve on the last test, which i didn't study for, went from a 76 to an 84. hell yes!
got new lab groups in physics, got to pick! i'm with xu, the man the myth the legend, and dev, so that should be fun. i had no homework to do during lunch, so i got to enjoy conversation! i am able to go to philadelphia during winter break, so i get to see my favorites again! i have a crush on a really sweet boy. i don't have rehearsal until after break so i get to come HOME and sleep and EAT. i've been feeling healthy and happy and it doesn't even matter that i haven't slept in in weeks. i have the most fun friends in the world. i had leftover chinese food and a nap today. it just feels like my world is back on its axis and i can relax. i realize it's junior year, but i don't feel overwhelmed. i feel like i can do this, that i'm capable, even though i have no motivation or direction. it's unusual but comforting. i usually doubt and doubt and now i'm saying to myself that "it's you, you can do this." i feel like i am due for a knock on my ass, so if i could knock on wood while writing this i would. i have two big big new years' resolutions to make me a better person. i am holding up conversations and keeping in touch (kind of). i realize what i need to fix and that's so good. i realize that i'm really lucky and i like having a good perspective.
i don't know if it's the holiday spirit or the warmer weather but i feel like sunshine.
today was monday, and i was functioning on two hours of sleep by my own fault. but i had a good day - history curve on the last test, which i didn't study for, went from a 76 to an 84. hell yes!
got new lab groups in physics, got to pick! i'm with xu, the man the myth the legend, and dev, so that should be fun. i had no homework to do during lunch, so i got to enjoy conversation! i am able to go to philadelphia during winter break, so i get to see my favorites again! i have a crush on a really sweet boy. i don't have rehearsal until after break so i get to come HOME and sleep and EAT. i've been feeling healthy and happy and it doesn't even matter that i haven't slept in in weeks. i have the most fun friends in the world. i had leftover chinese food and a nap today. it just feels like my world is back on its axis and i can relax. i realize it's junior year, but i don't feel overwhelmed. i feel like i can do this, that i'm capable, even though i have no motivation or direction. it's unusual but comforting. i usually doubt and doubt and now i'm saying to myself that "it's you, you can do this." i feel like i am due for a knock on my ass, so if i could knock on wood while writing this i would. i have two big big new years' resolutions to make me a better person. i am holding up conversations and keeping in touch (kind of). i realize what i need to fix and that's so good. i realize that i'm really lucky and i like having a good perspective.
i don't know if it's the holiday spirit or the warmer weather but i feel like sunshine.