bad luck
i feel lonely.
i feel really lost and dont know what to do. im sitting here and i dont know whether i should cry or just give it all up out of frustration. i have nothing anymore. NOTHING. i dont even have myself anymore. i would resort to things i shouldnt do but its stupid. I JUST WISH I FIT IN. i dont fit in with friends, i dont fit in with life, i dont fit in with anything. im left alone. all alone.
im so lost. i dont know what to think. i feel like im dead. i dont understand why things dont work out, i dont understand why everything has to go terribly wrong.
everything does go terribly wrong.
its a never ending cycle. Depression -> get somewhat happy -> Breakdown and repeat. it never works where im actually happy, only somewhat happy. im never fully happy with life. theres always something bringing me down. something fucking with my mind.
i need this to change. i think i may just end up giving up on everything, it just seems hopeless. i try and try to make things better but nothing ever does.
it seems like the only constant thing is failure. this life is repetitive and fucked up.
why do i have to feel like shit all the time?
i guess its my luck in the draw.
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kelsey
i feel really lost and dont know what to do. im sitting here and i dont know whether i should cry or just give it all up out of frustration. i have nothing anymore. NOTHING. i dont even have myself anymore. i would resort to things i shouldnt do but its stupid. I JUST WISH I FIT IN. i dont fit in with friends, i dont fit in with life, i dont fit in with anything. im left alone. all alone.
im so lost. i dont know what to think. i feel like im dead. i dont understand why things dont work out, i dont understand why everything has to go terribly wrong.
everything does go terribly wrong.
its a never ending cycle. Depression -> get somewhat happy -> Breakdown and repeat. it never works where im actually happy, only somewhat happy. im never fully happy with life. theres always something bringing me down. something fucking with my mind.
i need this to change. i think i may just end up giving up on everything, it just seems hopeless. i try and try to make things better but nothing ever does.
it seems like the only constant thing is failure. this life is repetitive and fucked up.
why do i have to feel like shit all the time?
i guess its my luck in the draw.
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kelsey