im sick and it blows
i havent wrote in forever, (forever? forever ever!) theres things right now in my life that couldnt be worse. but theres things that couldnt be better. my mom has breast cancer we found out the begining of this month. but it has really brought my family closer.. even with my dad. trevor told me he loved me last week for the first time. i know he means it. and i love him to.. it was weird tho. when he told me... like out of no where my eyes just started watering and i started to cry alittle.. ive just never had someone tell me that and really mean it. he has helped me with this whole cancer/mom thing. hes my saving grace. i love him. im so scared for my mom tho. not even just for her but for me and alison. we need her. shes pretty much our everything.. i love her so much. i dont want to loose her. all the test results come in on feb.3rd. im scared... i dont know. i just really feel all emotional right now. but im gonna go to sleep. im so sick.. bye oxox