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I just got back home..... Me and Derek went riding around..... It was fun.... I saw some guys that i hadnt seen in a while..... they invited me to come party with them, and i didnt want to? use to i would be like *hell ya, when and where* , I dont know, i think that since me and Derek have gotten together, even though he isnt really that mature, it has made me, in a way, mature and realize that some things arent really that important in life...... There is no need in going out and drinking every single weekend, it doesnt say much about your character...... I feel like a better person now..... and that is good =)..... It is amazing how things can change really fast.... but anyways, me and derek had a lil fight last nite and i thought that last nite was our last nite we were ever going to talk..... but i called back, apologized for being an irrational bitch, and now i think, well i hope, that everything is ok* His prom is tommorrow.... he is going with one of his friends from clintwood, and then im going to go to the after prom thing with him...Were going camping, it is going to be COLD AS HELL* ...... but im going to do it for him..... i think that i might wear my thermals* lol......
I feel as though me and a certain friend have grown apart..... It makes me *very* sad.....we have been through so much..... and i talk about her sometimes behind her back, and i know she talks about me..... and it shouldnt be that way...... Even though im with derek i should still be able to make time for her.... i tried to last weekend, but she was sick.... so things didnt work out.... I just want everything to be *right* again with us...... (You know who you are, and you know that i still love you, its just hard trying to manage time between ppl*)........
This sounds very corny, some days though, i just sit and think bout this time last year...... it was me, jess, britt, linds, and clof..... Those were the best times of my lives..... we were carefree, and we were true best friends..... All of us were together every single weekend..... I just want that feeling that i had when i was with all of them, to come back... that sounds soooo stupid, but what we had was great..... and now, it is destroyed..... I also understand that *love* happens, and sometimes you have to put other ppl before your friends.... which is ok, i understand, just wish things could of worked out, and we could of all stuck together....... but *IT HAPPENS* i suppose*
*Prom and Graduation*
Prom is in 2 weeks, im excited..... i think that me and nikki are going to do something together.....well my group and nikki's group..... possibly go camping or something after prom... and i think we are eating with laura and rebekah! ...... If anyone has any pics of pretty hairstyles, let me know please!
Graduation is in like 5 weeks...... this is sooo unreal... you wait your whole life for this, you think you are totally ready for it, and ready to get out of there... and then it hits you..... this is all that you really know??? You are more than likely going to lose all contact with your friends..... We went to the sr. choir thing today, the songs made my eyes tear up, i dont know how im going to make it through graduation....... UGH* anyways...... It has been like an emotional roller coster this week..... Im ready for it to end..... I think that im'a go call derek*....... Leave me some comments*