Too high expectations?
It's me again.
It's not too long until I have birthday, isn't it? I really don't know if I'd be happy or not. At least I'm going to spend it with my family and for my familie's sake I will give my best to look forward to it and be happy that day. (^^)
I guess you wonder why I'm like this (and if not I'm going to tell you anyway. xD') Well I always thought school would be exhausting, difficult, hard etc. because you have to learn that much but sometimes it's even harder to get back up, to link in again after you missed days. Today was such an uneasy day for me. I expected to get so much stuff and homework but I was wrong. They noticed I was back again and everything they said was "You're at fault " and "You could have been ill a day longer ".
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How do you feel? I didn't come to school with high expectations at all. I didn't wanted them to ask 'if I'm okay' or 'what my reasons were to miss out'. They didn't need to worry and they didn't have to notice that I'm back, too. Everything I wanted was that some pupils (usually my friends) would take care of school stuff I needed. Only that. I have been the one who asked, if there was any stuff I need to know. It was me asking what information I missed. That's fine with me asking for it but I only got answeres about what they did and what homework we need to do on sheets.
How am I supposed to do them? No sheets for me, none who could lend them to me.
It's my fault that I missed in school. The word 'missed' is wrong here but I don't know another word yet... It's not my fault that my art-teacher decided to do a theoretical-lesson today I'm really sorry that I'm going to write an exam in that subject as the only one. Why did they blame everything on me? I haven't asked for it. Instead they wished me to be ill just a little longer. Do they even know how it is to miss so many days, to suffer from something just like they said? At times I really don't think they know what they are telling with what their saying and moreover I think they don't really know how though ABI really is.
It's so annoying... I should look that I'm not going to miss in school ever again. I don't care if I'm sick and they get sick, too, anymore. Only a few exceptions but I will take care of them.
Sorry, I just had to write it down, since I can't talk to my family about that that openly. I was too afraid that they would notice that I was near to tears because I endured everything in school.
It's not too long until I have birthday, isn't it? I really don't know if I'd be happy or not. At least I'm going to spend it with my family and for my familie's sake I will give my best to look forward to it and be happy that day. (^^)
I guess you wonder why I'm like this (and if not I'm going to tell you anyway. xD') Well I always thought school would be exhausting, difficult, hard etc. because you have to learn that much but sometimes it's even harder to get back up, to link in again after you missed days. Today was such an uneasy day for me. I expected to get so much stuff and homework but I was wrong. They noticed I was back again and everything they said was "You're at fault " and "You could have been ill a day longer ".
.
.
.
How do you feel? I didn't come to school with high expectations at all. I didn't wanted them to ask 'if I'm okay' or 'what my reasons were to miss out'. They didn't need to worry and they didn't have to notice that I'm back, too. Everything I wanted was that some pupils (usually my friends) would take care of school stuff I needed. Only that. I have been the one who asked, if there was any stuff I need to know. It was me asking what information I missed. That's fine with me asking for it but I only got answeres about what they did and what homework we need to do on sheets.
How am I supposed to do them? No sheets for me, none who could lend them to me.
It's my fault that I missed in school. The word 'missed' is wrong here but I don't know another word yet... It's not my fault that my art-teacher decided to do a theoretical-lesson today I'm really sorry that I'm going to write an exam in that subject as the only one. Why did they blame everything on me? I haven't asked for it. Instead they wished me to be ill just a little longer. Do they even know how it is to miss so many days, to suffer from something just like they said? At times I really don't think they know what they are telling with what their saying and moreover I think they don't really know how though ABI really is.
It's so annoying... I should look that I'm not going to miss in school ever again. I don't care if I'm sick and they get sick, too, anymore. Only a few exceptions but I will take care of them.
Sorry, I just had to write it down, since I can't talk to my family about that that openly. I was too afraid that they would notice that I was near to tears because I endured everything in school.