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[kejenkins]

I'm starting to really hate my life. I'm so lonely and noone really cares what i do. I miss having close friends. i have like maybe 2 friends now and they always have other stuff to do whether it be work or boyfriends or other friends. I might sound like i'm just complaining but i dont have anyone. my mom has to take care of my step dad and my grandmother. my dad, well i have no dad. my brother is always gone with his friends, and to tell you the truth if i had friends i would be gone too. i'm probably makin a big deal out of nothing, its just lately ive really needed somewhere to go, to get away from family problems and there has been NOWHERE to go. everywhere i look is another problem and/or disappointment. I used to go to church when i had this problem but now it seems like all they do is judge me and kick me when im down. im sick of being the one to call others to hang out and im sick of being the one who always puts others before herself. IM SICK OF IT!
me and mom were talking today and she seems to think maybe the reason why i dont really have many friends that wanna hang out with me and why clayton broke up with me is because im moody and snippy with people. everything is always my fault. i called my brother, scott, crying and he said that i have to be patient with mom because shes had a really stressful week and shes just taking all her anger out on me. do yall not realize that all this crap has happened to me too? am i not allowed to be in a bad mood?

get me out of this town!

i dont know what to do anymore...