Back.
SentTalk about lying low for awhile.
Too much things have happened...too draining. I'm back here again, where it's once again more peaceful, more quiet. Nothing much to worry about. Less controversial.
School's out. Grad's in...well, waiting for the big day when I will finally march. Too damn bad, she won't be there to witness it (at least physically).
I dunno, I still feel lost sometimes. I know, I know, things like these cannot be hurried, but I wish it could be. I'm not the most patient of peoples I know out there. And this feeling sucks. Things are really starting to sink in these days, and whenever I realize that I got no "you" to turn to and look back to anymore, it's just...too much sometimes.
Thank God for friends. They keep your thoughts occupied, away from...things. But it can only go so far. And then the one person you want these things to matter to doesn't seem to want to be bothered by any of your ramblings. Or at least that's how things seem to be. Don't you really wanna be? If you would only tell me straight so that I won't need to be lost and baffled and be left confused for the most times. Coz the feeling sucks. Yeah, it makes me feel more alone and insecure about the world, if you really wanna know how much you are affecting me like this. I don't even care if, by some force of nature, you find this blog and this entry of mine. I DON'T CARE. Read it all you want. I don't really give a damn anymore where you're concerned. I wish you would stop living up to your name and stop being ma----! It's driving me nuts, I swear!
Sheesh. Ok, that's out. *heaves a hugh sigh* -__-;
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I really like this song that I just found lying somewhere, by Matt Wertz. It's entitled 5:19. Super apt for my mood these days. Hehe
I'd be lying through my teeth if I told you
That I'm ok
July came I thought I had it all together
Until you said, "I need some space"
Truth be told
It's so hard to wait
WIth one eye on the clock
And one on the phone
It's 5:19....
I'm feeling alone
If I could talk to you
I'd want you to know
I'm holding loose
But ain't letting go
We both know that I could think myself dizzy
Right now I'm spinning around
I know you said, 'baby, don't worry'
But I miss you right now
I just miss you right now
Baby, take all the time you need
I just want you to know
I'll be here, waiting
Too much things have happened...too draining. I'm back here again, where it's once again more peaceful, more quiet. Nothing much to worry about. Less controversial.
School's out. Grad's in...well, waiting for the big day when I will finally march. Too damn bad, she won't be there to witness it (at least physically).
I dunno, I still feel lost sometimes. I know, I know, things like these cannot be hurried, but I wish it could be. I'm not the most patient of peoples I know out there. And this feeling sucks. Things are really starting to sink in these days, and whenever I realize that I got no "you" to turn to and look back to anymore, it's just...too much sometimes.
Thank God for friends. They keep your thoughts occupied, away from...things. But it can only go so far. And then the one person you want these things to matter to doesn't seem to want to be bothered by any of your ramblings. Or at least that's how things seem to be. Don't you really wanna be? If you would only tell me straight so that I won't need to be lost and baffled and be left confused for the most times. Coz the feeling sucks. Yeah, it makes me feel more alone and insecure about the world, if you really wanna know how much you are affecting me like this. I don't even care if, by some force of nature, you find this blog and this entry of mine. I DON'T CARE. Read it all you want. I don't really give a damn anymore where you're concerned. I wish you would stop living up to your name and stop being ma----! It's driving me nuts, I swear!
Sheesh. Ok, that's out. *heaves a hugh sigh* -__-;
***
I really like this song that I just found lying somewhere, by Matt Wertz. It's entitled 5:19. Super apt for my mood these days. Hehe
I'd be lying through my teeth if I told you
That I'm ok
July came I thought I had it all together
Until you said, "I need some space"
Truth be told
It's so hard to wait
WIth one eye on the clock
And one on the phone
It's 5:19....
I'm feeling alone
If I could talk to you
I'd want you to know
I'm holding loose
But ain't letting go
We both know that I could think myself dizzy
Right now I'm spinning around
I know you said, 'baby, don't worry'
But I miss you right now
I just miss you right now
Baby, take all the time you need
I just want you to know
I'll be here, waiting