REALLY RANDOM thoughts.
I bet no one posts on here anymore..
I decided I wanted to update.
I'm still living in Cedar Rapids.. as much as I want out of here, I am comfortable. We are saving money and planning to move out of state. Which would be nice, but I have to admit that I'm a little anxious about moving and finding a job. I don't even know what the heck I want to do. Honestly, I don't want to do anything job wise. I'd rather try to figure things out like life in general the meaning and so forth. I mean no one ever has time to just stop and think, but I think it's important for us to observe our surroundings, have discussions, theories, and learn.
Does it not blow anyone else's mind that we're just living on this little ball thats floating in a never ending darkness? It's just crazy if that's really how it is then how can we think anything else in this life not possible. I mean how can you think anything is absurd really?
at any rate. I really want a haircut real bad. I'm just terrible at scheduling one. I don't even really know what to do with it. I kinda want to color it?? I don't know what color though.
Christmas went ok.. I'm sad to find out that I don't look forward to it anymore. I used to get so excited! remember when you were little and you'd get excited for like a month and would literally count down the days til christmas? At least that's what I would do. I used to think those chain link things we made at school were so cool. ha.
going back to the moving thing though. I think I'd like to start fresh where no one knew me. I'd be nice and I think refreshing, freeing. I wish I could live in the mountains! I really seriously want to just go to a mountain top stretch my arms out and yell as loud as I can.. ha.. I also think it'd be cool to just dance. I just imagine being on a mountain top all the time and how exhilarating it would be. I know it's possible, almost anything can be made possible I think, but we always stop ourselves or put it off. why? Is it weird that I want to get married on a mountain top with only a couple other people there and just party afterwards on the mountain top? I totally really want to make that happen. I don't like all the hype about weddings, I'm gonna keep mine small and personal. I just want to feel the happiest that I can be.
it's snowing outside. it's so beautiful. I think everyone who says they hate it are just liars. what type of person doesn't like snow. It's so calm, peaceful. everything's a little quieter when it snows, muffled. I love it. I love lying in the snow.. it's as if nothing bad can happen to you in that moment. I really want to go sledding. I seriously haven't been since I was 18. Which in my opinion is RIDICULOUS! I think I'd be a little scared at first. I am afraid of heights after all ha kinda funny since I mentioned how much I want to be on a mountain top. As much as I love sledding.. I've always kinda been afraid of it.
We got new neighbors.. they are making noise. they are always so loud. I think they're college freshman hicks. the type to have a confederate flag hanging in their living room. I hate it they're always right outside our door, it makes it uncomfortable to go out. it kinda makes me feel like I'm trapped inside all the time.
well.. I probably should do something productive now. I miss my friends all of you and love you. there isn't a day that I don't think of one of you.
I decided I wanted to update.
I'm still living in Cedar Rapids.. as much as I want out of here, I am comfortable. We are saving money and planning to move out of state. Which would be nice, but I have to admit that I'm a little anxious about moving and finding a job. I don't even know what the heck I want to do. Honestly, I don't want to do anything job wise. I'd rather try to figure things out like life in general the meaning and so forth. I mean no one ever has time to just stop and think, but I think it's important for us to observe our surroundings, have discussions, theories, and learn.
Does it not blow anyone else's mind that we're just living on this little ball thats floating in a never ending darkness? It's just crazy if that's really how it is then how can we think anything else in this life not possible. I mean how can you think anything is absurd really?
at any rate. I really want a haircut real bad. I'm just terrible at scheduling one. I don't even really know what to do with it. I kinda want to color it?? I don't know what color though.
Christmas went ok.. I'm sad to find out that I don't look forward to it anymore. I used to get so excited! remember when you were little and you'd get excited for like a month and would literally count down the days til christmas? At least that's what I would do. I used to think those chain link things we made at school were so cool. ha.
going back to the moving thing though. I think I'd like to start fresh where no one knew me. I'd be nice and I think refreshing, freeing. I wish I could live in the mountains! I really seriously want to just go to a mountain top stretch my arms out and yell as loud as I can.. ha.. I also think it'd be cool to just dance. I just imagine being on a mountain top all the time and how exhilarating it would be. I know it's possible, almost anything can be made possible I think, but we always stop ourselves or put it off. why? Is it weird that I want to get married on a mountain top with only a couple other people there and just party afterwards on the mountain top? I totally really want to make that happen. I don't like all the hype about weddings, I'm gonna keep mine small and personal. I just want to feel the happiest that I can be.
it's snowing outside. it's so beautiful. I think everyone who says they hate it are just liars. what type of person doesn't like snow. It's so calm, peaceful. everything's a little quieter when it snows, muffled. I love it. I love lying in the snow.. it's as if nothing bad can happen to you in that moment. I really want to go sledding. I seriously haven't been since I was 18. Which in my opinion is RIDICULOUS! I think I'd be a little scared at first. I am afraid of heights after all ha kinda funny since I mentioned how much I want to be on a mountain top. As much as I love sledding.. I've always kinda been afraid of it.
We got new neighbors.. they are making noise. they are always so loud. I think they're college freshman hicks. the type to have a confederate flag hanging in their living room. I hate it they're always right outside our door, it makes it uncomfortable to go out. it kinda makes me feel like I'm trapped inside all the time.
well.. I probably should do something productive now. I miss my friends all of you and love you. there isn't a day that I don't think of one of you.