Time to dust off the old journal once again
Hello once again, world.
It seems the only times I actually access this old thing are when I'm bored, have something very important to get off my chest or can't sleep. It just so happens I'm all of the above tonight. Well, I don't think I need to get anything off my chest, maybe just feel like saying I'm actually writing in this old thing again.
I will say though, it's been a really long time since I've reminisced on old times. A few minutes ago, I logged on my old MySpace account and really reflected on my past relationships with people. Not just the romantic ones, but the platonic ones as well. I don't think I had any revelations or anything, just a little sad about how many relationships I've lost over the past few years. I do find it surprising that I made so many different relationships just over the past five years, and have equally as many relationships falter. Funny how long five years really is.
I do find it a little disheartening how so many of my closest friends are either physically impossible to see, or just don't return your messages. I mean I do try my best to keep in touch with people, and although Ate Aileen is probably the closest one to me, often times it isn't as reasonable as I'd hope it to be to actually visit her. What I also find disheartening is that I've gained and lost so many friends, and have committed to a select few, that I feel like I've grown anti-social. What I mean is that I feel so comfortable with how my interactions are with these people, that I'm turned off by the thought of having to do it all over again.
Suffice to say, it's been very difficult for me down here in Huntington Beach. Aside from work, I don't really have any means to meet people, or hang out with anyone I like. I tried playing cards with people down here, but for the most part I find them to be repulsive. No, it's not what you think - I just feel like they care more about cards than actually having fun with the people they're playing with. Then there's video games. Formerly, I forged friendships out of DDR, but for one, I'm not trying to make friends with random high school kids. Secondly, the 'cades are dead.
Not really sure what I'm getting at here. Guess I really did have something to get off my chest.
It seems the only times I actually access this old thing are when I'm bored, have something very important to get off my chest or can't sleep. It just so happens I'm all of the above tonight. Well, I don't think I need to get anything off my chest, maybe just feel like saying I'm actually writing in this old thing again.
I will say though, it's been a really long time since I've reminisced on old times. A few minutes ago, I logged on my old MySpace account and really reflected on my past relationships with people. Not just the romantic ones, but the platonic ones as well. I don't think I had any revelations or anything, just a little sad about how many relationships I've lost over the past few years. I do find it surprising that I made so many different relationships just over the past five years, and have equally as many relationships falter. Funny how long five years really is.
I do find it a little disheartening how so many of my closest friends are either physically impossible to see, or just don't return your messages. I mean I do try my best to keep in touch with people, and although Ate Aileen is probably the closest one to me, often times it isn't as reasonable as I'd hope it to be to actually visit her. What I also find disheartening is that I've gained and lost so many friends, and have committed to a select few, that I feel like I've grown anti-social. What I mean is that I feel so comfortable with how my interactions are with these people, that I'm turned off by the thought of having to do it all over again.
Suffice to say, it's been very difficult for me down here in Huntington Beach. Aside from work, I don't really have any means to meet people, or hang out with anyone I like. I tried playing cards with people down here, but for the most part I find them to be repulsive. No, it's not what you think - I just feel like they care more about cards than actually having fun with the people they're playing with. Then there's video games. Formerly, I forged friendships out of DDR, but for one, I'm not trying to make friends with random high school kids. Secondly, the 'cades are dead.
Not really sure what I'm getting at here. Guess I really did have something to get off my chest.