tears of sadness or joy
everyone who has a myspace knows that like the only thing i check is myspace.
I am not being emo...i decided to start saying the darker thoughts i have been having. i often use to look down on some of my friends who use to cut and do other hurtful shit to themselves. i dont now. i am not saying i do this i am saying that i now understand the pain behind it. the feeling that you stand alone and that there is no one by your side or to help as you slowly slip into the dark abyss that is known as self hatred. i congratulate those who fought through this by themselve for i could not if i didnt have my 3 queens. these women have taken plenty of my shit as well as my physical and emotional burdenings.
i find myself scatter brained and afraid.
this is eating at me slowly. for those of you who dont know i pride myself on being a "keiston" the guy who has helped countless girls and guys attract and keep that special someone. what a lot of you dont know is that when i get fustrated (angry beyound all reason) i push everyone away...not this time. i caught myself doing this. she showed my how i show love without admitting it. the thought of loosing this person freaks me. i find myself questioning why. only not to find an answer. the thought of me not knowing what to do or where to go scares me shitless.
i find myself constantly wanting to cry. but i dont. i dont ever cry! expecially over something like this! you know the saying with knowledge comes peace....it lies. it leads to more places and you find out things you dont want to know.
my mother decided that it would be a good idea to get me emancipated so that i can get the hell out of her house. this erks me! not because i have to get out but its the fact that it is not on my terms. She is getting rid of KeiAumbre' (the one directly under me) because she claims i am fucking up her children and this would be best for him.
I love people like rachaelae-latin lol
joy is bliss if you know how to enjoy it.
it can numb the pain of the outside world...
Angry people...and most of all
those who hurt you worse.
i end this with saying i feel shitty.....and mister hogan needs to talk to me in person. Christine and her mother are fucking amazing. i mis Celine and all my other out of state buddies. expecially Jen! Ashley and Kaliegh i am formally appologizing. Te amo Corazon!-spanish......Basia Bona (die slow)
I am not being emo...i decided to start saying the darker thoughts i have been having. i often use to look down on some of my friends who use to cut and do other hurtful shit to themselves. i dont now. i am not saying i do this i am saying that i now understand the pain behind it. the feeling that you stand alone and that there is no one by your side or to help as you slowly slip into the dark abyss that is known as self hatred. i congratulate those who fought through this by themselve for i could not if i didnt have my 3 queens. these women have taken plenty of my shit as well as my physical and emotional burdenings.
i find myself scatter brained and afraid.
this is eating at me slowly. for those of you who dont know i pride myself on being a "keiston" the guy who has helped countless girls and guys attract and keep that special someone. what a lot of you dont know is that when i get fustrated (angry beyound all reason) i push everyone away...not this time. i caught myself doing this. she showed my how i show love without admitting it. the thought of loosing this person freaks me. i find myself questioning why. only not to find an answer. the thought of me not knowing what to do or where to go scares me shitless.
i find myself constantly wanting to cry. but i dont. i dont ever cry! expecially over something like this! you know the saying with knowledge comes peace....it lies. it leads to more places and you find out things you dont want to know.
my mother decided that it would be a good idea to get me emancipated so that i can get the hell out of her house. this erks me! not because i have to get out but its the fact that it is not on my terms. She is getting rid of KeiAumbre' (the one directly under me) because she claims i am fucking up her children and this would be best for him.
I love people like rachaelae-latin lol
joy is bliss if you know how to enjoy it.
it can numb the pain of the outside world...
Angry people...and most of all
those who hurt you worse.
i end this with saying i feel shitty.....and mister hogan needs to talk to me in person. Christine and her mother are fucking amazing. i mis Celine and all my other out of state buddies. expecially Jen! Ashley and Kaliegh i am formally appologizing. Te amo Corazon!-spanish......Basia Bona (die slow)