A Rambling 1am post because I'm going nuts
Hey all,
I haven't written in months so I will give you the low down on what is going on with me:
The bone-infection in my jaw that was SUPPOSED to have been cured by 2 months of IV penicillin did not work.
IT'S BACK. And I can't sleep due to the immense pain on the right side of my face.
I can't open my mouth wider than the width of my pinkie finger. SO when I eat it feels like I'm trying to jam my food through a mail slot.
I'm so tired, my mother has held my vicodin hostage because she believes I am too dependent on it.
I JUST WANT TO FUCKING SLEEEEEEEEP! That's all I need it for.
So I have a plan to go behind her back and aquire more vicodin from the oral surgeon. I'm over 18 so she can stuff it.
What are the doctors going to do to me? I don't know. They've been dicking around waiting for me to see an infectious disease specialist. My appointment is in TWO WEEKS. I don't know if I can last this long.
At this point all I want them to do is stick another PICC line in me and be done with it. My jaw hurts. I want all of this madness to be over. Or I just might have a nervous breakdown because of all the pressures of health problems+school+work.
I could think of a million more things that COULD be wrong with me (ie:cancer) but I just want to sit here and stubbornly hold a pity party for myself.
EVERYONE IS INVITED!! YAAAAAY!