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Looking around here, I don't really know anyone. I must say that it's quite depressing. I used to have very few mates around here, but I fell away from them all. Although the last few days I might've seemed happy, I've been very ... distant, I've been keeping to myself. Even while filming, it's like something's different. When we take a break from filming, almost everyone is out having fun with their mates, joking, having a good ol' time, but I just fall back, not really in their circle of friends. It's been a great experience, filming The Jacket and working with Adrien Brody is absolutely wonderful, I really shouldn't complain, I really don't have the right to be sad. I'm a very luck girl to have done the things I've done, and worked with the actors I've worked with, but there are just these moments that I get; these moods that come over me and I just want to drop what I'm doing, and go back to being who I was before this all started. Which is really stupid for me to say, I've wanted to do this, I've wanted to act since before I can even remember. I don't know why these feelings come over me. I don't know why there are just these times that I'm so sick of everything around me and I just want to go home and act like none of it ever happened, act like it was just some dream I'd had the night before.
I don't know why I get so worked up about it. I'm very lucky to be doing what I do. I need to get over my little mood swings. But what changed? What happened? I used to be excited when filming, I used to have a complete blast while filming. And then just one day I'm tired, I want to sleep in, I want go out and not have people follow me around.
*sighs* Perhaps I just need to sleep. For the past few nights, I've just sat there in my bed with my little thoughts book and I've just written all night. Apparently I complain a lot more as the night goes on. Gah. I just want to sleep. So that's what I'll do I guess... sleep it off, hopefully I'll feel better when I wake.
I don't know why I get so worked up about it. I'm very lucky to be doing what I do. I need to get over my little mood swings. But what changed? What happened? I used to be excited when filming, I used to have a complete blast while filming. And then just one day I'm tired, I want to sleep in, I want go out and not have people follow me around.
*sighs* Perhaps I just need to sleep. For the past few nights, I've just sat there in my bed with my little thoughts book and I've just written all night. Apparently I complain a lot more as the night goes on. Gah. I just want to sleep. So that's what I'll do I guess... sleep it off, hopefully I'll feel better when I wake.