confuzed...

[keilahjo]

i dont know what to do.. i have people in all different directions telling me what to do and when i dont like what they say they get pissed bc i dont like what they are telling me... yea i know they dont want me to screw up and make wrong decisions but, guess what i have to make mistakes to learn and im 18 years old and i can flat out freekn say i havent mad to dang many... i can count them on my hands and if u ask me then that aint very healthy... but hey who cares.. i dont it seams to me they people want me to change well guess what by hell im going to yea i a fun loveing person but oh well as far as i can tell people dont like that side of me so how freekn cares any more i dont... i truley dont... i used to me a good person big heart.. but i seen where that got me and that was no where all it got me was people useing me bc i was nice.. then i distanced my self from people, to see if it would help but it didnt that much so i distanced my self more and more and i got bitched out bc i was the same person i was befor .... so guess what aint no one going to like who im going to turn into next...
ill wright more in a lil while... leaven for now...
but hey i dont know why im eveing saying any thang bc no one reads this stupid thang any way....
except for the exception of j.a.b. who does read it every once in a while...
peace,love,and chichen grease....