it has been 5 yrz....
something i wrote in my office just now....
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ha ~
it has been 5 years...
5 long years since i came to know 5 adorable guys...
*at least they were adorable back den....*
now...
i am not sure...
heheheheh...
jokin..
they still are guys whom i adore...
even though things are no longer the same,
the 5-some back den ...
is now a 3-some that just added a new member, a cute rascal who is up to dunno what @ his dance school and a fish that has no direction in life @ the moment ~
haiz...
sometimes i really cannot help but wonder....
what would life be like for me if i had not fallen head over heels in support of them...
*nah, love is too strong a word to use in this context *
i would definitely be a richer person ~~~
hahahahhaa....
this is something i know for sure...
the amount of money i spent on their albums, vcds and dvds alone ,
is enough to pay for a round trip to so many places in the world...
*not inclusive of accommodation at the place la !!! =P *
life has certainly been full of ups and downs since i started supporting them...
pple whom i thought were frens,
betrayed and made use of me....
pple whom i never thought i would befren,
turn out to be better frens that i expected.....
i have seen and experienced more backstabbing in this fan circle ,
than in school and in the workplace...
one min ,you can be the best-est of friends...
and the next min, she could be taking bad about you behind your back....
tellin the next person what a bitch you are...
scary thought considering that many of these fans are young girls...
just thinking about how much scheming is going on,
frightens me ,,,
I guess growin up in an environment where i was protected,
friends around me were those whom i grew up with,
never having to fight for things,
gave me the impression that i could trust everyone and anyone...
it made me very vulnerable,
not knowing how to handle to all these things that i am experiencing now...
i guess i am just a very simple person who has joined a complicated circle..
i know there are people who laugh @ me behind my back ,
but my thoughts now is that ..
as long as i do not do anything against my will and conscious...
they can laugh all they want ...
coz i am still proud of myself ~~~ ^^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ha ~
it has been 5 years...
5 long years since i came to know 5 adorable guys...
*at least they were adorable back den....*
now...
i am not sure...
heheheheh...
jokin..
they still are guys whom i adore...
even though things are no longer the same,
the 5-some back den ...
is now a 3-some that just added a new member, a cute rascal who is up to dunno what @ his dance school and a fish that has no direction in life @ the moment ~
haiz...
sometimes i really cannot help but wonder....
what would life be like for me if i had not fallen head over heels in support of them...
*nah, love is too strong a word to use in this context *
i would definitely be a richer person ~~~
hahahahhaa....
this is something i know for sure...
the amount of money i spent on their albums, vcds and dvds alone ,
is enough to pay for a round trip to so many places in the world...
*not inclusive of accommodation at the place la !!! =P *
life has certainly been full of ups and downs since i started supporting them...
pple whom i thought were frens,
betrayed and made use of me....
pple whom i never thought i would befren,
turn out to be better frens that i expected.....
i have seen and experienced more backstabbing in this fan circle ,
than in school and in the workplace...
one min ,you can be the best-est of friends...
and the next min, she could be taking bad about you behind your back....
tellin the next person what a bitch you are...
scary thought considering that many of these fans are young girls...
just thinking about how much scheming is going on,
frightens me ,,,
I guess growin up in an environment where i was protected,
friends around me were those whom i grew up with,
never having to fight for things,
gave me the impression that i could trust everyone and anyone...
it made me very vulnerable,
not knowing how to handle to all these things that i am experiencing now...
i guess i am just a very simple person who has joined a complicated circle..
i know there are people who laugh @ me behind my back ,
but my thoughts now is that ..
as long as i do not do anything against my will and conscious...
they can laugh all they want ...
coz i am still proud of myself ~~~ ^^