[journal] Pretending + Being Secretive
Pretending...Yeah…pretending that you didn’t know anything…pretending that you didn’t hear something; didn’t see a thing…
I did that yesterday. Well, actually, I didn’t pretend to do something or to nod doing something. I was in my bad mood yesterday. That made me didn’t want to do anything. I read, but didn’t comment. I heard, but didn’t answer. I’m just too lazy to do it.
There, I think to myself, “Hey, you’re being calmer today…”
Calmer? Yeah. I didn’t shout too much, I didn’t laugh out loud, I didn’t say anything that shows my emotion in too easy ways. And I think I like it.
I’ll just keep reading what people wrote, hearing what people said, gossips, jokes, but not involved in it. But when someone asks you about it, you can answer it without a single doubt.
“Pretending that you know nothing.”
That way, being secretive sometimes is so much fun! You won’t have to be over-reaction at something. Cross that with something I love the most. *chuckled* Yeah, I still can’t help myself when it comes to fangirling. #LoL
It’s just, for yesterday problem, MY inner-self problem - yeah, I don’t have any problem with anyone at the moment and I want to keep it that way like…forever - I just realize it that it was really nice to be the 3rd POV from the world’s conversation. Oh! Am I saying too much? No, ‘cause were talking about internet right now, and yes, you can make it the world are spinning around you and you’re not the one who spinning around the world. *chuckled*
Another thing: when you found someone who talks behind your back about you or your friends, saying some bad things without ‘healthy’ reason about something you love, being secretive is the best way to counter-attack. They will laugh, swearing or even mentioning the object you like in their comments, for they ‘know’ that you’re not going to read it. Well, that’s what they know, right? They didn’t know that you’re smiling, looking at their childish behavior.
It’s not that fun actually, looking at someone who disgracing your favorite things. It’s sad. Really. But fighting them back is not my way. It would just make them hate it even more, and maybe, just maybe, they will hate you too. It’s no fun, right?
That way, I chose to be secretive. Silent. Sad, but not with rage. I’ve been in a rage condition before, and it felt bad. Very bad. I don’t want to feel it anymore. I’ll pretend not knowing anything, and silently, I gathered my tranquility, cold-mind and logic. I’ll find ONE WORD that enough to ‘strike back’. That way, you won’t have to start a silly argue with some childish people. ;)
LoL. Like I can do that easily anyway. Well, I’ve made it this far. In two days, I didn’t see any not-very-smart comment about my favorite things. I know; I have to do the same thing to others. There are few things that I don’t like but it’s other’s favorite. I just have to remind myself not to do the same not-very-smart things about it.
*chuckled* oh, what am I blabbering about. I’m being oh-so-very-twisted lately.
Well, I think that’s enough for tonight. Next time, I want to talk about: September 7th.
Good night, everyone! ;-*
P.S: The music I'm listening right now suits my condition very well..*chuckled* *look at my music down there..* X3
I did that yesterday. Well, actually, I didn’t pretend to do something or to nod doing something. I was in my bad mood yesterday. That made me didn’t want to do anything. I read, but didn’t comment. I heard, but didn’t answer. I’m just too lazy to do it.
There, I think to myself, “Hey, you’re being calmer today…”
Calmer? Yeah. I didn’t shout too much, I didn’t laugh out loud, I didn’t say anything that shows my emotion in too easy ways. And I think I like it.
I’ll just keep reading what people wrote, hearing what people said, gossips, jokes, but not involved in it. But when someone asks you about it, you can answer it without a single doubt.
“Pretending that you know nothing.”
That way, being secretive sometimes is so much fun! You won’t have to be over-reaction at something. Cross that with something I love the most. *chuckled* Yeah, I still can’t help myself when it comes to fangirling. #LoL
It’s just, for yesterday problem, MY inner-self problem - yeah, I don’t have any problem with anyone at the moment and I want to keep it that way like…forever - I just realize it that it was really nice to be the 3rd POV from the world’s conversation. Oh! Am I saying too much? No, ‘cause were talking about internet right now, and yes, you can make it the world are spinning around you and you’re not the one who spinning around the world. *chuckled*
Another thing: when you found someone who talks behind your back about you or your friends, saying some bad things without ‘healthy’ reason about something you love, being secretive is the best way to counter-attack. They will laugh, swearing or even mentioning the object you like in their comments, for they ‘know’ that you’re not going to read it. Well, that’s what they know, right? They didn’t know that you’re smiling, looking at their childish behavior.
It’s not that fun actually, looking at someone who disgracing your favorite things. It’s sad. Really. But fighting them back is not my way. It would just make them hate it even more, and maybe, just maybe, they will hate you too. It’s no fun, right?
That way, I chose to be secretive. Silent. Sad, but not with rage. I’ve been in a rage condition before, and it felt bad. Very bad. I don’t want to feel it anymore. I’ll pretend not knowing anything, and silently, I gathered my tranquility, cold-mind and logic. I’ll find ONE WORD that enough to ‘strike back’. That way, you won’t have to start a silly argue with some childish people. ;)
LoL. Like I can do that easily anyway. Well, I’ve made it this far. In two days, I didn’t see any not-very-smart comment about my favorite things. I know; I have to do the same thing to others. There are few things that I don’t like but it’s other’s favorite. I just have to remind myself not to do the same not-very-smart things about it.
*chuckled* oh, what am I blabbering about. I’m being oh-so-very-twisted lately.
Well, I think that’s enough for tonight. Next time, I want to talk about: September 7th.
Good night, everyone! ;-*
P.S: The music I'm listening right now suits my condition very well..*chuckled* *look at my music down there..* X3