A jumble nerves...
That is probably the best way that I can describe how I'm feeling right now. I have all these different emotions starting my new job next week. I realize that I felt this way about one year ago, but it is something that you can never get use to. Part of me is scared, starting new job in an area where I don't really know anyone. I won't even have the cushion of being around people my own age. However I guess we all have to grow up some time and face the world. I have been facing it a little bit and know that I can survive on my own. However what I am really afraid of is finding companionship. I don't mind spending time and making friends with people older than myself. It is just that we are at different points of time in our lives. Most have had been married, had families and watched them grow old. That isn't the same with me, I haven't even begun my life is that aspect. Yes, I would like to find someone to settle down with and start a family, but not yet. There is much that has yet to been seen and done. That doesn't mean that I want to wait forever. Remember, I am impatient some of the time and for some things. Guess, I will have to curb my impatience and fears. Just focus on my work and see what the area can offer.
I have started packing, which is probably one of the reasons why I am feeling so sad. Yet I am pondering how I have more clothes now then when I came. Did they multiple? I didn't think that I had that many. A few friends have offered to help me take my stuff to my new place on the weekend. Providing that I provide food. That I don't mind and can do. With them I might head into Knoxville or Oak Ridge and see what the places have to offer. Guessing the usually stores, but you never know. Sometimes they are missing some. Like, I haven't seen a whole lot of Kmarts. What's with that? They are a great store. The same is true for Target. Now that's a great store. I also have to see what they offer in the form of theaters. You know me, I can't miss going to the movies. However it will sadden me that there are really now places that I can rent movies. Guess I will have to try out NexFlix. They deliver to your door, which would be nice. No late fees and you choose the movies online. I promise to display pictures of my new place once I get there and have internet to work with.
Gotta love the godfathers of the world. Mine just sent me a Mac Notebook, to which, I'm extremely gratiful. I just need to learn how to deal with one. I have never really worked on except for some friends. Now I will be spending all my time with one. If anyone has any helpful hints. I am listening. I'm hoping that it has the ablility to burn dvds. Cut down on the spending of buying them as they come out in the store. It is going to be nice playing with it. Plus I can take my work with me.