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so today sucked... well, not really.. but kinda
i've been sober all day.. for the first day in a while.. thats not bad though..
i talked to travis today. it was a good conversation. i'm kinda missing the fact that he isn't here anymore. Oh well, i've moved on, so has he. no big deal.... well...
He told me that his girlfriend (now ex girlfriend) had gotten an email from me a while back. and i've never even talked to this girl, much less know her emial. well, this email can be found as a comment on my last journal entry. I dunno. I really could care less about her finding out about it (as heartless as that sounds) but i'm more so hurt because there are only two or three people who could possibly know my email address password. Travis may know, but why would he email her. And there are two other people that know. AND one of them didn't know anything about me and travis being together when he was in town. So. I'm more so just hurt that a "friend" of mine would log onto my email account and send someone such a terrible email. I really just don't know what to think. I mean, there is a slight chance that it could be someone else who hates me or travis and wanted to be a dumb mother fucking piece of shit. God! i'm so upset and pissed! I really don't know how to react... why would someone do that? i really don't understand. because whoever did it either was a great computer hacker who knows their shit. or a really good friend that is close to me. I have a damn good idea. but, i mean, what am i gonna fucking do about it? i can't prove anything.. damnit.. i hate trusting people... why is this fucking making me cry? =(
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I feel it necessary to appoligize... i missed one small detail... my email address is Kelzey_gurl@hotmail.com
the person who emailed travis's ex was kelzey_girl@hotmail.com
So... i'm sorry to the friend i accused... i'm still pissed at whoever did it.. i just shouldn't have been so quick to point fingers. I guess its best that I never know who did it. I've decided I have MAJOR trust issues. I really don't like to trust people.
i've been sober all day.. for the first day in a while.. thats not bad though..
i talked to travis today. it was a good conversation. i'm kinda missing the fact that he isn't here anymore. Oh well, i've moved on, so has he. no big deal.... well...
He told me that his girlfriend (now ex girlfriend) had gotten an email from me a while back. and i've never even talked to this girl, much less know her emial. well, this email can be found as a comment on my last journal entry. I dunno. I really could care less about her finding out about it (as heartless as that sounds) but i'm more so hurt because there are only two or three people who could possibly know my email address password. Travis may know, but why would he email her. And there are two other people that know. AND one of them didn't know anything about me and travis being together when he was in town. So. I'm more so just hurt that a "friend" of mine would log onto my email account and send someone such a terrible email. I really just don't know what to think. I mean, there is a slight chance that it could be someone else who hates me or travis and wanted to be a dumb mother fucking piece of shit. God! i'm so upset and pissed! I really don't know how to react... why would someone do that? i really don't understand. because whoever did it either was a great computer hacker who knows their shit. or a really good friend that is close to me. I have a damn good idea. but, i mean, what am i gonna fucking do about it? i can't prove anything.. damnit.. i hate trusting people... why is this fucking making me cry? =(
***edit
I feel it necessary to appoligize... i missed one small detail... my email address is Kelzey_gurl@hotmail.com
the person who emailed travis's ex was kelzey_girl@hotmail.com
So... i'm sorry to the friend i accused... i'm still pissed at whoever did it.. i just shouldn't have been so quick to point fingers. I guess its best that I never know who did it. I've decided I have MAJOR trust issues. I really don't like to trust people.