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[keepxthexpeace]

im finally finished with highschool. its done. those four years were pretty awesome. I met amazing people and had an amazing time. there were a couple stupid fights but those dont even matter now. i wouldnt change anything about the people i met. they are all important to me no matter what has happend between us. Basically i loved highschool and

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[_oh_my_marilyn]

jeh some time has passed, not much, but some, and slowly these days pass me and each day seems to be longer than the one before. I feel like every new day is the day i awake to find out your not here for the first time all over again. and that night will drastically and magically change whats really happened, i feel like if i sleep at night when i awake youll be here again. although i know its just wishful thinking, i just long to see your face again jeh. and sleeping is somethimes the only thing i love to do, because sometimes when im lucky i dream about you and it feels so real, i talk to you hug you kiss your face and waking up hurts so bad to realize it was only a dream. but i do feel as if it was really you who visited me in my dreams, i wish i could have those dreams everynight. i miss you so much its unbearable. i went through the feeling of being numb and a sort of feeling like i was in a movie, like all thats happened was just a role, and when it was done then the mess would subside, and all that was said and done didnt really happen and you would be here. but now im going through episodes of reaility really sinking in and not believeing its true. i still am in awe and shock about what happened. jeh i miss you so much, and think about you every second. i really do. i just miss you so much i cant say it enough. I hope your really rocking with god now and watching over us. my heart is so heavy and i know seeing you again would make my heart mend back, but i dont know when that day will be, what seems like eternity for me will be but a few seconds for you, but time wont matter, because we will reunite. but while im here on earth jeh im gonna live for both of us, the good things that happen will replay in my mind for the both of us to enjoy. i will never forget you jackie, and i will always love you.
our friendship is infinate jeh.
i love you so much.
Love, Deanna.