There's a lock around the computer cords and it says " Tuff Stuff"
So, here i am, chilling in the computer lab. I'm feeling like I did yesterday. I'm a very bitter person when things don't go my way. I think I'm also realizing that, even if i had a computer, it wouldn't occupy me like it did last semester.
Last semester I talked to more people, now no one has time. Technically I shouldn't have time to dick around.
I think it's the weather that's keeping me down. It's making me feel like death.
It's pretty warm out today but of course the second it gets warm it rains like crazy.
At least i'm wearing flip flops. If i can wear flip flops it makes my day that much better.
Tomorrow I'm hanging out with a boy from Brooklyn named Mark. He's pretty nice, or so far he seems that way. I met him online. My piercings and vegan straight edgedness attracted him on Myspace. We'll see how this goes. He seems cool, I mean he's all vegan and sxe but not a hardcore kid. That's pretty rare, but at this point i think that's a pretty positive thing.
Speaking of hardcore, HOW THE HELL DO I FIND OUT ABOUT HARDCORE SHOWS IN NYC?? Maybe i'm just dumb but i never find out about shows until they're over.
I need to take a course in speaking up and not being shy. I see so many kids around with core tees and such and I always kind of wish they'd see me and say hi. I mean, i'm a pretty typical hxc kid, well i look like one anyway. So, of course in my head i think they should see that and say something to me but then that little self esteem issue kicks in and i'm like " yea right, i'm not cute so they aren't going to talk to me" and obviously that makes me think I can't talk to them. I hate these stupid games people play.
I apologize for my current spell of dullness and complaints. I totally blame the weather.
I think i'm going to go be more dull and go back to my dorm and sleep for the rest of the night.
I'm thisclose to just having some kind of emotional outburst. I feel like i'm waiting for something to happen, some change to occure, but i don't know what. I sort of know what to change but i don't know how to do it. I just wish something different would happen to me, but i suppose i've got to be the one to make it happen.
and i'm totally spying on this girls work next to me. Man, I'm totally creepy.
Someone give me a fucking hug or i'll punch you in the gut. YOU HEARD ME.
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Last semester I talked to more people, now no one has time. Technically I shouldn't have time to dick around.
I think it's the weather that's keeping me down. It's making me feel like death.
It's pretty warm out today but of course the second it gets warm it rains like crazy.
At least i'm wearing flip flops. If i can wear flip flops it makes my day that much better.
Tomorrow I'm hanging out with a boy from Brooklyn named Mark. He's pretty nice, or so far he seems that way. I met him online. My piercings and vegan straight edgedness attracted him on Myspace. We'll see how this goes. He seems cool, I mean he's all vegan and sxe but not a hardcore kid. That's pretty rare, but at this point i think that's a pretty positive thing.
Speaking of hardcore, HOW THE HELL DO I FIND OUT ABOUT HARDCORE SHOWS IN NYC?? Maybe i'm just dumb but i never find out about shows until they're over.
I need to take a course in speaking up and not being shy. I see so many kids around with core tees and such and I always kind of wish they'd see me and say hi. I mean, i'm a pretty typical hxc kid, well i look like one anyway. So, of course in my head i think they should see that and say something to me but then that little self esteem issue kicks in and i'm like " yea right, i'm not cute so they aren't going to talk to me" and obviously that makes me think I can't talk to them. I hate these stupid games people play.
I apologize for my current spell of dullness and complaints. I totally blame the weather.
I think i'm going to go be more dull and go back to my dorm and sleep for the rest of the night.
I'm thisclose to just having some kind of emotional outburst. I feel like i'm waiting for something to happen, some change to occure, but i don't know what. I sort of know what to change but i don't know how to do it. I just wish something different would happen to me, but i suppose i've got to be the one to make it happen.
and i'm totally spying on this girls work next to me. Man, I'm totally creepy.
Someone give me a fucking hug or i'll punch you in the gut. YOU HEARD ME.
Lates