whats a dream? a goal?
This is the first time ever i had no dream no goal i want to work for. I just want to give up and do nothing. I dont no why should i push myself so hard for nothing to work for and nothing to show for everything i m doing. I feel like all i m is this huge disappointment in this world. What good have i done. All i m is this huge waste of space and time.
I was eating mac and cheese today in the kitchen and my mom yells at me to stop scrapping the bowl, then she said if she heard it one more time i was in trouble. Well i said u do it to and she goes no i dont and stop backing talking i said yea ya do. She goes stop being a snoty bitch i'm m not one of ur friends. i gave her a dirty look and she said go head raise ur eyes like that. i said i was more like thinking i wounder where i learned it from. Then of course i get blamed for the arguement she just goes shes pmsing, YES MOTHER ITS ALL MY FOUGHT IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH U AND U BEING A FUCKING BITCH ALL THE GOD DAMN TIME. Oh it gets much better, they go upstairs like 2 hours later and the dogs tour apart the trash and well the puppie poops upstairs in the family room stil and i picked it up last night before i went to bed becuz god forbide if my brother has to pick it up. So i threw it in the trash can upstairs well the dogs tore it apart and got it all over their crates so of course my dad blamed me and i got yelled at.
God i am just sum waste, i dont even want to be here anymore. I give up fuck this, and fuck everyone go blow urselves.
I was eating mac and cheese today in the kitchen and my mom yells at me to stop scrapping the bowl, then she said if she heard it one more time i was in trouble. Well i said u do it to and she goes no i dont and stop backing talking i said yea ya do. She goes stop being a snoty bitch i'm m not one of ur friends. i gave her a dirty look and she said go head raise ur eyes like that. i said i was more like thinking i wounder where i learned it from. Then of course i get blamed for the arguement she just goes shes pmsing, YES MOTHER ITS ALL MY FOUGHT IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH U AND U BEING A FUCKING BITCH ALL THE GOD DAMN TIME. Oh it gets much better, they go upstairs like 2 hours later and the dogs tour apart the trash and well the puppie poops upstairs in the family room stil and i picked it up last night before i went to bed becuz god forbide if my brother has to pick it up. So i threw it in the trash can upstairs well the dogs tore it apart and got it all over their crates so of course my dad blamed me and i got yelled at.
God i am just sum waste, i dont even want to be here anymore. I give up fuck this, and fuck everyone go blow urselves.