I believe that lovers should be chained together and thrown into a fire with their songs and letters

[keepsakeshoebox]

blah man o man. I feel like I have no life. I want to write something, but i have SO many thoughts I just dont know what to put down. i dont want to sound dumb and confsuing either. if i come up with something that im willing to share of course its going up here bc noone looks at this thing anyway. I worked today. Im kinnda getting sick of it. I mean my job really isnt hard but sometimes im just SO tired and i just want to be like ok heres yalls menus i could care less where you sit or who serves yall. i dont think that would go well though. im watching the new Avril Lavigne video right now..i like it and i like the song. I like the lyric that goes thanks for acting like you cared thats a keeper. well right now I dont like Pablo very much. I mean im not trying to sound selfish, but im going to miss Mallory too. I mean its going to be an almost 3 weeks of not seeing each other. lots of things happen in 3 weeks. But of course Pablo leaves a million miles away and doesnt even have a license. And must i mention there on a "break" which prob only made her feel worse. o well ya know. When you have a bf you want to be with him ALOt. i know how that feels. especially when you cant see them all the time. i still dont like Pablo right now though. 1. b/c i didnt get to see Mallory before she went on her trip. 2. bc hes an asshole to me for no freakin reason. he never use to be like that. boys are retarded. i have to mention another boy is being an asshole. but of course i never leave names. I might as well forget about boys. I mean i know I dont want a relationship right now, but I get lonley and i want a boy to be there. i bet that sounds silly, but i dont care thats what I want.

-sarah-