Thanks...
Well guess what... when you think life is over... it isnt... thats where my name comes into play... Christopher... Saint Christopher guided people when they were lost... but thats not why I am here... That is what my friends do for me! I have the greatest friends ever and that is why I am just going to keep on swimming.
I thought life was over according to February 21, last night. A girl, the one I thought was the love of my life, I dated for four years broke up with her boyfriend Jason to be friends with me. Well... we became more than friends, things were not at all like old times but I felt that bond again. And then things went down hill. Jason started talking shit about Sammy and I and it messed us up. But last night I straight out told Sammy, you need to chose and make up your mind. And what does she say,:I have chosen, I chose a few nights ago, I chose Jason. And that is why I gave him my virginity last night: Well that almost killed me. I didnt know what I was gunna do without her. But ya know... what can I do right?
Well wrong... I dont need her! I survived the last couple years without her... just fine. I have the most wonderful friends it is undescribable. And that is where my life starts... I am re-born. Back to my happy self. Not all at once I did love her and it is gunna take some time to get over but I will manage. She doesnt deserve me or my heart or what I have to offer.
Thanks guys you guys have always been there for me...
Jenn~ You have been the best friend ever and there for me for the past years. Even through the ruff times with Sean nothing broke us apart. You are a friend that in 60 years when our spouses are dead I will be with retired on a friggin front porch in rocking chairs with you just looking back to good old days at Camelot and Rainbow Falls. The times when we cant remember what we did for fun, yet we know we had fun. Fun times getting crunk at OUR Newyears Eve Party. Or acting like idiots online. Or how we would always find somthing to laugh about even when we both felt like shit. The times we went through friend after friend but never got tired with eachother. How we always know what eachother is thinking and gunna say. There is so much more I could put but it would go on forever. Nothing can express the love I feel for you. My Soul Mate. A friend till the end. I love you Jenn.
Laura~ Though memories are few there are still those. I know now what it meens to be a friend. You have made school life tollerable and sometimes wonderful. You meen so much to me for putting up with my meaness in class and shit when I am not in the bestest moods. When you told me about the Crew and about how you dont know what you would have done without me this year it made me fly. That was some of the nicest things anyone has said or done for me. I love you Laura... my little bean... WOAAH DOGGY!
Zaidy and Nancy~ You guys have been there for me always when I just needed to chill and vent. You guys dont judge and are so wonderful. Thanks for being there.
Jen~ You are so cute! I love you PUMAgal! You make stuff fun and I love the way we are gunna get married... all our incommons.
Rachel~ You too are a new friend but if I needed to talk I know I could come to you!
The Boys~ You guys are a great bunch of dudes and you make life fun and funny! You guys keep everyone on there toes!
Sam~ I love you! Even through everything and how much I thought I hated you but I dont! You are so awesome even though you are a dykey bitch!
Sam and Shay~ Though the lessons you guys taught me were in ways that were not good it still was worthful. I learned so much from the two of you and the ways you guys showed me unconditional love. We need to be a big gay happy family again. If it is ever possible. You guys dont stay mad at me... dont stay mad at eachother!
Mark~ We never hang out but in school I consider you my best guy friend. You are so fun to be around and just an all around good guy! You rock! haha! Fun times in advisory... Thanks Kira and Steph too you guys make it fun.
Tim~ We arent the greatest friends and all but you have always been there right next door. When I need to talk or just chill with the guys I walk on over. Thanks for bein sucha great bud!
Scott and Jon~ Though I dont know yous that well, and I have met you guys once... You guys are cool! You guys are such jokesters and are fun to talk to! You are all around good guys! You both better treat ma Jenn goood!
Sammy~ Yes even you! You have caused me pain and to hate myself and everything I am and stand for. But you have taught me the truth of love. You are one of the most wonderful people yet I hate you with a passion. You treated me like shit and showed me that I am worth somthing by treating me like I wasnt! Thanks!
I thought life was over according to February 21, last night. A girl, the one I thought was the love of my life, I dated for four years broke up with her boyfriend Jason to be friends with me. Well... we became more than friends, things were not at all like old times but I felt that bond again. And then things went down hill. Jason started talking shit about Sammy and I and it messed us up. But last night I straight out told Sammy, you need to chose and make up your mind. And what does she say,:I have chosen, I chose a few nights ago, I chose Jason. And that is why I gave him my virginity last night: Well that almost killed me. I didnt know what I was gunna do without her. But ya know... what can I do right?
Well wrong... I dont need her! I survived the last couple years without her... just fine. I have the most wonderful friends it is undescribable. And that is where my life starts... I am re-born. Back to my happy self. Not all at once I did love her and it is gunna take some time to get over but I will manage. She doesnt deserve me or my heart or what I have to offer.
Thanks guys you guys have always been there for me...
Jenn~ You have been the best friend ever and there for me for the past years. Even through the ruff times with Sean nothing broke us apart. You are a friend that in 60 years when our spouses are dead I will be with retired on a friggin front porch in rocking chairs with you just looking back to good old days at Camelot and Rainbow Falls. The times when we cant remember what we did for fun, yet we know we had fun. Fun times getting crunk at OUR Newyears Eve Party. Or acting like idiots online. Or how we would always find somthing to laugh about even when we both felt like shit. The times we went through friend after friend but never got tired with eachother. How we always know what eachother is thinking and gunna say. There is so much more I could put but it would go on forever. Nothing can express the love I feel for you. My Soul Mate. A friend till the end. I love you Jenn.
Laura~ Though memories are few there are still those. I know now what it meens to be a friend. You have made school life tollerable and sometimes wonderful. You meen so much to me for putting up with my meaness in class and shit when I am not in the bestest moods. When you told me about the Crew and about how you dont know what you would have done without me this year it made me fly. That was some of the nicest things anyone has said or done for me. I love you Laura... my little bean... WOAAH DOGGY!
Zaidy and Nancy~ You guys have been there for me always when I just needed to chill and vent. You guys dont judge and are so wonderful. Thanks for being there.
Jen~ You are so cute! I love you PUMAgal! You make stuff fun and I love the way we are gunna get married... all our incommons.
Rachel~ You too are a new friend but if I needed to talk I know I could come to you!
The Boys~ You guys are a great bunch of dudes and you make life fun and funny! You guys keep everyone on there toes!
Sam~ I love you! Even through everything and how much I thought I hated you but I dont! You are so awesome even though you are a dykey bitch!
Sam and Shay~ Though the lessons you guys taught me were in ways that were not good it still was worthful. I learned so much from the two of you and the ways you guys showed me unconditional love. We need to be a big gay happy family again. If it is ever possible. You guys dont stay mad at me... dont stay mad at eachother!
Mark~ We never hang out but in school I consider you my best guy friend. You are so fun to be around and just an all around good guy! You rock! haha! Fun times in advisory... Thanks Kira and Steph too you guys make it fun.
Tim~ We arent the greatest friends and all but you have always been there right next door. When I need to talk or just chill with the guys I walk on over. Thanks for bein sucha great bud!
Scott and Jon~ Though I dont know yous that well, and I have met you guys once... You guys are cool! You guys are such jokesters and are fun to talk to! You are all around good guys! You both better treat ma Jenn goood!
Sammy~ Yes even you! You have caused me pain and to hate myself and everything I am and stand for. But you have taught me the truth of love. You are one of the most wonderful people yet I hate you with a passion. You treated me like shit and showed me that I am worth somthing by treating me like I wasnt! Thanks!