good lord.
what a night. i passed out during the party, and i woke up at like 4am to find dustin curled up on the dining room floor. i guess he got sick of waiting for everyone to get off the couch and leave lol. last nite was fun, and glad alex came over since she's leaving for cali tonite. we've barely known her 3 weeks and she's already going! why can't other stores take the incompetent fucks instead. gr.
lucy came over for awhile but she got tired and left early.. illona fucked me over yet again. whatever.. im getting sick of her bullshit. some girls just make lousy girlfriends AND friends.
daytona was fun.. got to see aidan (THE most precious boy i've ever had the pleasure to meet in my life). He's almost a year old and he's almost talking... he rocks! before i left, i told him bye and he waved to me.. so cute :) i want one. yanno, one day. stevie was fun too.. she definitely hasn't changed a bit. "youre so skinny dan" followed by a jab to the ribs.. yep, thats stevie. thanks for letting me stay the nite on that LOVELY fouton though.. and how about BOTH bridget jones movies. christ! lol
im glad i got to see the parents too.. i made my dad some cds bc he likes my music to listen to on the way to work. he was pretty quiet, not quite cold though. he doesn't owe me anything. im really thrilled they invited me for dinner and everything and that i actually got to hug them both. that really lifted my spirits...
i saw my sister too.. she's 7 months along now. my little nephew jacob matthew remillard... what an original name. nevermind... :) i felt him kicking and moving around and stuff. what's wild is.. my sister has only gained like 4 lbs. through this whole thing. we are like, the skinniest assholes ever.
god a lot of people were at my house last nite.. wtf. im so not cleaning this shit up either. i wanna leave so fucking bad.
we're supposed to buy our tickets today
but lucy had this thing with this guy in nyc
and now shes saying she can get her ticket free
she just has to stay with him a lot.
seriously.. what the fuck.
laine seems happy.. i hope she's happy.
i really really do.
im just so scared she's going to disappear on me..
my feelings havent changed..
at all
and i dont know why
all i know is that this must be love bc i'll never tire of dreaming of her.
i think i broke down out of nowhere last nite. as evidenced by my drunk entry last nite.
well, that happens sometimes. i guess its better than being constantly depressed about it but yeah.. it still doesnt exactly thrill me.
i guess i should give her her stuff back.. she probably wants those snow boots. and i think i have a couple sweaters of hers.. some shirts. i dno.. i havent looked in so long :( maybe ill just mail them to her house.
i dont think anyone benefits from seeing each other face to face right now.
i'd love nothing more than to see her again.. but not like this.
god.. first love. i bet she thinks i'm naive.
blah. i have to work today.. so ok.. maybe ill break down again now.
lucy came over for awhile but she got tired and left early.. illona fucked me over yet again. whatever.. im getting sick of her bullshit. some girls just make lousy girlfriends AND friends.
daytona was fun.. got to see aidan (THE most precious boy i've ever had the pleasure to meet in my life). He's almost a year old and he's almost talking... he rocks! before i left, i told him bye and he waved to me.. so cute :) i want one. yanno, one day. stevie was fun too.. she definitely hasn't changed a bit. "youre so skinny dan" followed by a jab to the ribs.. yep, thats stevie. thanks for letting me stay the nite on that LOVELY fouton though.. and how about BOTH bridget jones movies. christ! lol
im glad i got to see the parents too.. i made my dad some cds bc he likes my music to listen to on the way to work. he was pretty quiet, not quite cold though. he doesn't owe me anything. im really thrilled they invited me for dinner and everything and that i actually got to hug them both. that really lifted my spirits...
i saw my sister too.. she's 7 months along now. my little nephew jacob matthew remillard... what an original name. nevermind... :) i felt him kicking and moving around and stuff. what's wild is.. my sister has only gained like 4 lbs. through this whole thing. we are like, the skinniest assholes ever.
god a lot of people were at my house last nite.. wtf. im so not cleaning this shit up either. i wanna leave so fucking bad.
we're supposed to buy our tickets today
but lucy had this thing with this guy in nyc
and now shes saying she can get her ticket free
she just has to stay with him a lot.
seriously.. what the fuck.
laine seems happy.. i hope she's happy.
i really really do.
im just so scared she's going to disappear on me..
my feelings havent changed..
at all
and i dont know why
all i know is that this must be love bc i'll never tire of dreaming of her.
i think i broke down out of nowhere last nite. as evidenced by my drunk entry last nite.
well, that happens sometimes. i guess its better than being constantly depressed about it but yeah.. it still doesnt exactly thrill me.
i guess i should give her her stuff back.. she probably wants those snow boots. and i think i have a couple sweaters of hers.. some shirts. i dno.. i havent looked in so long :( maybe ill just mail them to her house.
i dont think anyone benefits from seeing each other face to face right now.
i'd love nothing more than to see her again.. but not like this.
god.. first love. i bet she thinks i'm naive.
blah. i have to work today.. so ok.. maybe ill break down again now.