(no subject)
I feel so0o0o tired...like I could sleep for a week..if not more!!! My step Brothers and Sister are here. They got in today. I m not sure what I think of them yet, the girl seems really bratty, but my mom says shes not-IDK yet...we'll see.
But on a much sadder note, today was Ashley's last day at work :(...the time is passing so fast!!! She will be gone soon! I am so0o0o not looking forward to Aug 20th-AT ALL!!! Tonight is the 3rd night that we dont hang out-ALL SUMMER! We always hang out!! But I dunno, Im feeling kinda low about alot of shit going on with me right now. My dad is getting married in Dec to a 27yr old girl he doesnt even kno!!! And I cant move in with him apparently anymore, so now I dunno what to do! Josh maybe moving a bit more North of Florida WHICH SUX!!! I knew things between me and this kid were tooooo good to be true! Theres no way you could find someone that you connect with, and have so0o much in common with...and it all works out!! I was right when I told Mau that dating is pointless!! I dont wanna date-it hurts to much!!! IDK, he says hes not going to, that he'll get 2 jobs if he has to...but thats not fair to him-ya kno? But I dunno...I hope hes right, I hope that will work its self out!...Soon cuz Im stressin like WHOA! I feel so0o0o sad right now, I really do. I feel like everyone has slipped or is slipping from me. I am no longer friends with Angie cuz well...she says I dont ever call her to chill, but I wish she understood why, Sarah and I are over this whole, "Kristy's b-day thing" but yet we cant pick up where we left off. Those were 2 good friends that I basically let walk right out of my life. Yamil and I havent hung out since before graduation!!Mau...he and I have such a funny relationship...its weird. We havent talked in a long ass time, and I dont wanna be the one to call him cuz I feel like Im always the one to call him, so again Im letting him slip-but not really cuz thats how we are I guess...IDK. Then Ashley is fuckin moving to B.F.E and....Josh...well I hope he can stay! This summer started off so great! It seemed like it was going to be the best summer ever! We were all so close in the beginning, and now its only me and Josh..maybe. I mean dont get me wrong. I have made such a strong friendship with 2 great people...but I also lost a few people that meant something also. What do I do now?
But on a much sadder note, today was Ashley's last day at work :(...the time is passing so fast!!! She will be gone soon! I am so0o0o not looking forward to Aug 20th-AT ALL!!! Tonight is the 3rd night that we dont hang out-ALL SUMMER! We always hang out!! But I dunno, Im feeling kinda low about alot of shit going on with me right now. My dad is getting married in Dec to a 27yr old girl he doesnt even kno!!! And I cant move in with him apparently anymore, so now I dunno what to do! Josh maybe moving a bit more North of Florida WHICH SUX!!! I knew things between me and this kid were tooooo good to be true! Theres no way you could find someone that you connect with, and have so0o much in common with...and it all works out!! I was right when I told Mau that dating is pointless!! I dont wanna date-it hurts to much!!! IDK, he says hes not going to, that he'll get 2 jobs if he has to...but thats not fair to him-ya kno? But I dunno...I hope hes right, I hope that will work its self out!...Soon cuz Im stressin like WHOA! I feel so0o0o sad right now, I really do. I feel like everyone has slipped or is slipping from me. I am no longer friends with Angie cuz well...she says I dont ever call her to chill, but I wish she understood why, Sarah and I are over this whole, "Kristy's b-day thing" but yet we cant pick up where we left off. Those were 2 good friends that I basically let walk right out of my life. Yamil and I havent hung out since before graduation!!Mau...he and I have such a funny relationship...its weird. We havent talked in a long ass time, and I dont wanna be the one to call him cuz I feel like Im always the one to call him, so again Im letting him slip-but not really cuz thats how we are I guess...IDK. Then Ashley is fuckin moving to B.F.E and....Josh...well I hope he can stay! This summer started off so great! It seemed like it was going to be the best summer ever! We were all so close in the beginning, and now its only me and Josh..maybe. I mean dont get me wrong. I have made such a strong friendship with 2 great people...but I also lost a few people that meant something also. What do I do now?