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I was feeling really fucking depressed earlier today and all i wanted to do was to cry, just to bawl and all. i talked to my friend and bandmember on msn and she was feeling the same. so we talked a bit about that and of course my london trip, but then my little cousin tilda showed up at my house cos she's gonna sleep over here cos her parents are going somewhere. she's 5 years old, and a half she says. she's so adorable and being with her made me a bit happier. so i spent some time with her today. then i went to bandmember's place to give her prezzies from london and also she borrowed some of my new cds including Razorlight cos she's their biggest fan. i can really see it in front of me, her marrying Johnny Borrell. If they don't get married, the world will just end. she's one of my best friend, even though i'm not sure i',m one of her best friends. Cos my so-called best friend and i don't really have that much in common anymore, and we never hang out really. i'm not that social at all. hello eljay! anyways, so then i got back home and i hung out lots with my cousin cos my parents and my sister were switching rooms, so i had to lok after little cousin. then she started to think i wa slike her best cousin in the world, getting attached to me and all. i'm like "HUH??!?!?!!". that has never happened before. i'm the boring one. everybody loves my sister. or at least my mum. never me. i'm not used to it and it's really strange. pauvre moi! how to handle such success? now, tomorrow, i'm supposed to go to the zoo avec my mum, dad, and my two little cousins, tilda and agnes. i call agnes agony cos it fits her name but people think i think she's awful but she's not. she's very noisy and lively but she makes upfor it by looking like petah dockertii. she looked like him when she was little and had short hair. the pic of peter when he was little is a lot like hers, but she's got bigger eyes. really, they're huge! where was i? oh right, tomorrow zoo. i don't know if i wanna go. i told petite cousin i would but i'll be so bored.....mfgjklhfjkhdf. plah! can't get myself out of it probably. will have to go and demand ice-cream. then i'll cry while listeing to you're my waterloo on my iPod. it's the cryiest song ever!!! and i just can't get enough of eight days a week with carlossss.....he's, to qote whoever wroe it to NME, "pure sex in a leather jacket". never have truer words been spoken. carlosssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. end of spazz.
yeah yeah...i'm feeling boring now.