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Well, this has been a most wonderful weekend! It started off by beating spain park which is always good! The football season of my senior year is starting off really well! I spent this weekend with the most wonderful tama. We babysat last night for these kids, and they were all really cute except one of the kids was annoying. O well. We were sitting in the living room doing something and tama was sitting in my lap and this guy walked up to the door (the door was open, but there was a screen door) and I bet he thought we were the weirdest people b/c tama was sitting in my lap. o well. Me and tama bought lemonade from these kids in my neighborhood who were giving all the money to the hurricane people. I know, I know, we're so sweet...
So I guess I've really been hit with something lately. I've noticed that it is really hard for me to really really make friends and become really close to them. Like, I tend to just stay in my little comfort zone of friends and don't like to get out of it. I mean, I talk to people, I really try, but I just get too uncomfortable. I'm bad at thinking of things to say to people, and I'm just not an outgoing person, and I hate it. No matter how much I try to make myself one, I just can't. I feel like if I let anybody know who I really am, they might not like me, and that makes me feel like I'm putting on a front. Right now I don't even know who I truly am... is the real Kandice the shy one who hates to initiate things or talk to people I don't know that well, or is the real Kandice the one who desires attention and will try and make new friends or the person who I am when I'm around my friends. I need to find out who I really am and embrace that before I go off to college and meet new people.
I got a livejournal that I'm going to just talk about what God is showing me. Don't add it to your friends list if you're not going to read it. I don't care if anybody reads it. It's for my benefit, but if anybody wants to read it you can. It's...
http://www.livejournal.com/users/allineedisgrace/
"When we accept ourselves for what we are, we decrease our hunger for power or the acceptance of others because our self-intimacy reinforces our inner sense of security"
So I guess I've really been hit with something lately. I've noticed that it is really hard for me to really really make friends and become really close to them. Like, I tend to just stay in my little comfort zone of friends and don't like to get out of it. I mean, I talk to people, I really try, but I just get too uncomfortable. I'm bad at thinking of things to say to people, and I'm just not an outgoing person, and I hate it. No matter how much I try to make myself one, I just can't. I feel like if I let anybody know who I really am, they might not like me, and that makes me feel like I'm putting on a front. Right now I don't even know who I truly am... is the real Kandice the shy one who hates to initiate things or talk to people I don't know that well, or is the real Kandice the one who desires attention and will try and make new friends or the person who I am when I'm around my friends. I need to find out who I really am and embrace that before I go off to college and meet new people.
I got a livejournal that I'm going to just talk about what God is showing me. Don't add it to your friends list if you're not going to read it. I don't care if anybody reads it. It's for my benefit, but if anybody wants to read it you can. It's...
http://www.livejournal.com/users/allineedisgrace/
"When we accept ourselves for what we are, we decrease our hunger for power or the acceptance of others because our self-intimacy reinforces our inner sense of security"