Go to sleep early and talk to your pillow...whenever you see fit
I am pathetically worn out. I haven't been doing much more than walking to and from places on campus and reading and attempting to study. But these just make me weary and sleepy again and I end up feeling in the mood to collapse to sleep...last night I slept a full 11 hours, woke up went to some classes and then just needed to sleep, during them, after them, I needed sleep chillin' with people, I needed it sitting in the library and I need it now. I'm falling apart I think and my body's calling for sleep in desperate attempts to keep me in my mould. I'm also recovering from sickness and my nose is very much clogged making my sinuses ache and gives me a slight headache that makes me want to lay down and fall asleep.
I think its in result of being sick, but also more than that. I'm just not taking good care of my own self lately. I'm lazy when it comes to eating healthy stuff. I go to the store and buy what ever tempts me, which I feel will supply me with the needed energy that will taste awesome and will make me perky and happy. It doesn't do that but my mind keeps overseeing that :b
Joe has one more week here...he's taking vinyl from the library w\out them knowing about it and he's bein' a very very bad boy hehe...plans to on his very last day here to bring in a big, hiking bag into the library lol, Eric's bag lol, and will stuff it full of Vinyl's, then take the only vinyl that's with a security strip, rip off that strip and put it in someone else's stuff, wait to the side in a comfy chair there, reading n waitin' for that person to walk out and set the alarm system off and as the kid's being taken back and checked he'll jet out of the library, put the bag in his car and drive enroute to Boston lol...but yeah, he's talked about this for a while, of how the vinyl just sits up on those shelves with no one to appreciate it..so he goes ahead and steals as much of it as he possibly can.
Yesterday he was talking to me about how him and his almost new g/f aren't working because he is, as he put it, "infatuated with me", and is on the same intellectual level as I and that this other girl, Nikki, isn't the same way. Why oh why. What he sees in me is something I don't see. Well it was there before I started to fall apart, get sick and now have lost it and he senses that its still there, but its gone out the window and I have to work hard to get that part of me back to where it should be, inside me. Question is: where to look. DURHHRSSS! I haven't been Zolofting lately :b...But no that won't cure it...I deffinately have lost something recently.
Right now Joe is trying to make me see a little bit of what's wrong right now with me and Ben and said that if he were me that I'd just go and ditch him. BUT HE ISN'T ME!! HE IS ONLY TELLING ME THIS BECAUSE HE LOVES ME SO MUCH AND CAN'T STAND SEEING ME WITH SOMEONE ELSE!!! He wants me single and open so that he can attempt to ask me out again :b... I can't do that...I can't do it to myself nor can I do that to the only guy I truly love with all my heart...just give up like that. I have the potential to not give up for the rest of my lifetime and I will hold strong :D.
I'm feeling head-achey once again. I'm waking up to the fact that I'm not passing math and it is bringing me down into the deep depths of the earth. I'm waking up to the fact that I'm not doing so great in chemistry too. It's bringing me further down. I understand that the other subjects are much better..they are average, slightly above but I'm not putting everything I've got into them. I'm messing myself up soo horribly and I expect sleep to heal all...and I am realizing it will probably take a two weeks straight of sleep to get myself back on the right track. Ugh...
From: mrstalker
Date: December 9th, 2003 - 04:12 pm
IP Address: (64.12.96.78)
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hey sorry ur sleepy i hope ur friends sceme works out smoothly.in my old libary when i lived in az had a bunch of cool cds and never got rented i had a really good sceme to steal them but didnt have to to work it out, they have this like self sevre check out and the machince always forgets to de magnitive the items so i was thinking to check out sum books and leave the cd and walk out and if they top me witch they never do, they are so rascict there cuz im white they wouldent but if i was a idff color they have like sercutiy come bastards ,, well when i would walk out i show them my recipet from the books and they then are like ok go then i would i scammed them and i would contiue doing it every day, sorry for the long comment hjave a great day later
I think its in result of being sick, but also more than that. I'm just not taking good care of my own self lately. I'm lazy when it comes to eating healthy stuff. I go to the store and buy what ever tempts me, which I feel will supply me with the needed energy that will taste awesome and will make me perky and happy. It doesn't do that but my mind keeps overseeing that :b
Joe has one more week here...he's taking vinyl from the library w\out them knowing about it and he's bein' a very very bad boy hehe...plans to on his very last day here to bring in a big, hiking bag into the library lol, Eric's bag lol, and will stuff it full of Vinyl's, then take the only vinyl that's with a security strip, rip off that strip and put it in someone else's stuff, wait to the side in a comfy chair there, reading n waitin' for that person to walk out and set the alarm system off and as the kid's being taken back and checked he'll jet out of the library, put the bag in his car and drive enroute to Boston lol...but yeah, he's talked about this for a while, of how the vinyl just sits up on those shelves with no one to appreciate it..so he goes ahead and steals as much of it as he possibly can.
Yesterday he was talking to me about how him and his almost new g/f aren't working because he is, as he put it, "infatuated with me", and is on the same intellectual level as I and that this other girl, Nikki, isn't the same way. Why oh why. What he sees in me is something I don't see. Well it was there before I started to fall apart, get sick and now have lost it and he senses that its still there, but its gone out the window and I have to work hard to get that part of me back to where it should be, inside me. Question is: where to look. DURHHRSSS! I haven't been Zolofting lately :b...But no that won't cure it...I deffinately have lost something recently.
Right now Joe is trying to make me see a little bit of what's wrong right now with me and Ben and said that if he were me that I'd just go and ditch him. BUT HE ISN'T ME!! HE IS ONLY TELLING ME THIS BECAUSE HE LOVES ME SO MUCH AND CAN'T STAND SEEING ME WITH SOMEONE ELSE!!! He wants me single and open so that he can attempt to ask me out again :b... I can't do that...I can't do it to myself nor can I do that to the only guy I truly love with all my heart...just give up like that. I have the potential to not give up for the rest of my lifetime and I will hold strong :D.
I'm feeling head-achey once again. I'm waking up to the fact that I'm not passing math and it is bringing me down into the deep depths of the earth. I'm waking up to the fact that I'm not doing so great in chemistry too. It's bringing me further down. I understand that the other subjects are much better..they are average, slightly above but I'm not putting everything I've got into them. I'm messing myself up soo horribly and I expect sleep to heal all...and I am realizing it will probably take a two weeks straight of sleep to get myself back on the right track. Ugh...
From: mrstalker
Date: December 9th, 2003 - 04:12 pm
IP Address: (64.12.96.78)
Select:
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hey sorry ur sleepy i hope ur friends sceme works out smoothly.in my old libary when i lived in az had a bunch of cool cds and never got rented i had a really good sceme to steal them but didnt have to to work it out, they have this like self sevre check out and the machince always forgets to de magnitive the items so i was thinking to check out sum books and leave the cd and walk out and if they top me witch they never do, they are so rascict there cuz im white they wouldent but if i was a idff color they have like sercutiy come bastards ,, well when i would walk out i show them my recipet from the books and they then are like ok go then i would i scammed them and i would contiue doing it every day, sorry for the long comment hjave a great day later