~*~ConfuZZeld~*~
Hey i have alot of things on my mind... Well mark finally saw me again for the first time yesterday in a week. Yea he siad he was avoding me for two reasons.. one he wanted to see tiffany and i can understand that because well they are dateing and he really wanted to see her before she moves today... And the other reason was that whole steve situation. I dont know why it botherd him so much. He said that it was because i was waisting my time and shit like that. But i wasnt because the only time i spent with steve i was already with mark and there was no extra time there. And then i mean i dont know.. I dont really like steve.. Its just when i was around him it was sort of fun because before that i was the third wheel and i dont like that. So it was something to occupy the time.. i mean he was with tiffany.. and steve was a lone and i was too.. so we were alone together.. lol.. that way it didnt make us as bored when tiffany and mark would shut us out.. SO yea...
Tiffany is moving and i dont know what to say to that.. i mean there will no longer be a tiffanys house.. or a tiffany that close by... Then on the other hand it doesnt bother me so much because i sort of am mad at the way she took him away from me the last week.. I need mark time.. you can tell by the cuts on my wrist.. Yea i am fucked in the head but mark makes it better..
Yeasterday he stoped bye.. and i was in the house with john.. now i dont like john and he is not my friend but he was talking about getting my free weed.. and when they say that i would let the devil in... anyways yea so mark came to the door.. and i looked out and i was like mixed between wanting to open the door and run into his arms and hug him and never let go.. but i also wanted to say fuck off you cant just brush me off and come back like shit didnt happen.. Yea but i ended up going with mark.. yea i saw steve.. no sparks this time.. I KNEW IT.. lol.. anyways yea.
I have marks birthday card for him i dont know if i will see him today because he is helping tiffany move.. and he may not be back untill tommorrow.. what a way to spend your fucking birthday NOT. I sort of feel bad for mark because they just started going out. but then again he knew she was leaving before they did start so i dont know. I hate to say this but with tiffany gone i might actually get to see him more with out her. I mean i love her and nathan but i dont know.. mark is my friend and when hes with her i am just a tag along.. so yea
Oh i got a job its at cannaberry nursing home. Yea at the eden.. Its like a kettle with out dogs.. and its over by the cop shop.. and then well yea i get to leave soon.. i dont want to go to my next hour.. its la.. i dont want to read anymore 1700-1800 fucking poems... BLAH. i dont understand them.. how can i when my life is so much diffrent from theres?\
well talk to you later...
Happy birthday Marky
Tiffany is moving and i dont know what to say to that.. i mean there will no longer be a tiffanys house.. or a tiffany that close by... Then on the other hand it doesnt bother me so much because i sort of am mad at the way she took him away from me the last week.. I need mark time.. you can tell by the cuts on my wrist.. Yea i am fucked in the head but mark makes it better..
Yeasterday he stoped bye.. and i was in the house with john.. now i dont like john and he is not my friend but he was talking about getting my free weed.. and when they say that i would let the devil in... anyways yea so mark came to the door.. and i looked out and i was like mixed between wanting to open the door and run into his arms and hug him and never let go.. but i also wanted to say fuck off you cant just brush me off and come back like shit didnt happen.. Yea but i ended up going with mark.. yea i saw steve.. no sparks this time.. I KNEW IT.. lol.. anyways yea.
I have marks birthday card for him i dont know if i will see him today because he is helping tiffany move.. and he may not be back untill tommorrow.. what a way to spend your fucking birthday NOT. I sort of feel bad for mark because they just started going out. but then again he knew she was leaving before they did start so i dont know. I hate to say this but with tiffany gone i might actually get to see him more with out her. I mean i love her and nathan but i dont know.. mark is my friend and when hes with her i am just a tag along.. so yea
Oh i got a job its at cannaberry nursing home. Yea at the eden.. Its like a kettle with out dogs.. and its over by the cop shop.. and then well yea i get to leave soon.. i dont want to go to my next hour.. its la.. i dont want to read anymore 1700-1800 fucking poems... BLAH. i dont understand them.. how can i when my life is so much diffrent from theres?\
well talk to you later...
Happy birthday Marky