if i could fall to pieces
man oh man. tonight my parents and I are having "the talk". yeah. about that. haha. i have no idea what they want to talk to me about but im basically going to tell them that i am moving out and going to live with vicki. im sick of being in this house. im just so sick. so yeah. its not that im being rebellious or anything. but, i just read that book yesterday and it really hit me. guys, if you didn't read my last entry b/c it was too long.....reconsider. go back and read it. seriously. it opened my eyes. i didn't type it all out b/c i thought it was fun. i did it hoping that someone else would read it and be inspired like i was. i can't sit here and let life pass me by anymore. i can't let my parents hold me back anymore. NO GUTS...NO GLORY
so im sure most of you have heard that nathan and i broke up. he is moving to orlando in the fall and i just was not happy. those were my 2 biggest reasons. according to him, i didn't love him enough to work through a long distance relationship. its not that.....its just that i don't do long distance. sorry charlie. well, nathan in this case. i've dealt with it well though. im looking on the bright side and i AM picking up and moving on. i can't sit and sulk about this. i would probably be sitting here pouting right now thinking i made the wrong decision if i hadn't read this:
love, love, love.
you have to love, and if you don't get love right, you have to move on and forgive. and then you have to remember that you've forgiven or else you can't move on. and if you don't move on, you'll surely end up bitter. DON'T LET SOME HELL-BENT HEART LEAVE YOU BITTER. there are too many people too angry at a world that isn't in the least bit angry with them.
so yes. i still love him dearly. it was just time. long overdue.
i am going to panama city tomorrow and then to port st. joe. im gonna stop in PC and visit with gene for a bit then head off to PSJ to spend the night with my godparents. my godfather has cancer and he went for chemo today and im just afraid if i don't go now and see him, i may not have another chance. i haven't seen them in a really long time. on saturday, on my way back, i am stopping in blountstown to watch gene's band, Tears Run Black, practice. im excited b/c i've never heard them. gene's the vocalist and i look forward to hearing him. then gene and i will head back to tally. it will be good times. let's hope those plans can stay that way. haha.
guys, really pray for me please. this talk tonight has been stressin me out for about the past week. my parents don't even know about nathan and i yet. and i have no idea what they want to talk to me about. pray that the spirit will give me courage and wisdom. i'll need lots of it. i appreciate it.
i hope everyone is doing well. did everyone have a great new year? what did you do? well, i will say one thing.....i kissed jessie! haha. yeah. good times. tell me what all you guys did!!
well, i must go and prepare myself for this talk. i hope everyone has a wonderful evening. i love you all.
xoxox
so im sure most of you have heard that nathan and i broke up. he is moving to orlando in the fall and i just was not happy. those were my 2 biggest reasons. according to him, i didn't love him enough to work through a long distance relationship. its not that.....its just that i don't do long distance. sorry charlie. well, nathan in this case. i've dealt with it well though. im looking on the bright side and i AM picking up and moving on. i can't sit and sulk about this. i would probably be sitting here pouting right now thinking i made the wrong decision if i hadn't read this:
love, love, love.
you have to love, and if you don't get love right, you have to move on and forgive. and then you have to remember that you've forgiven or else you can't move on. and if you don't move on, you'll surely end up bitter. DON'T LET SOME HELL-BENT HEART LEAVE YOU BITTER. there are too many people too angry at a world that isn't in the least bit angry with them.
so yes. i still love him dearly. it was just time. long overdue.
i am going to panama city tomorrow and then to port st. joe. im gonna stop in PC and visit with gene for a bit then head off to PSJ to spend the night with my godparents. my godfather has cancer and he went for chemo today and im just afraid if i don't go now and see him, i may not have another chance. i haven't seen them in a really long time. on saturday, on my way back, i am stopping in blountstown to watch gene's band, Tears Run Black, practice. im excited b/c i've never heard them. gene's the vocalist and i look forward to hearing him. then gene and i will head back to tally. it will be good times. let's hope those plans can stay that way. haha.
guys, really pray for me please. this talk tonight has been stressin me out for about the past week. my parents don't even know about nathan and i yet. and i have no idea what they want to talk to me about. pray that the spirit will give me courage and wisdom. i'll need lots of it. i appreciate it.
i hope everyone is doing well. did everyone have a great new year? what did you do? well, i will say one thing.....i kissed jessie! haha. yeah. good times. tell me what all you guys did!!
well, i must go and prepare myself for this talk. i hope everyone has a wonderful evening. i love you all.
xoxox