Change of Attitude
So, as some people know, the last four years have been incredibly stressful. What people don't know is HOW stressful. The occasional glimpses friends and family have seen are only the surface. I believe in keeping my problems generally to myself, much like my father does. I don't like to burden other people, especially when they are stressed out as well. (I know, it's a bad habit, Scott's working on me.) I have run the gamut from depression to rage to despair and back again...
...And as of now, I am done. Yes, life is still stressful. There is the potential for some unbelievable nastiness still, but I am done. I am done running, stressing, fretting, and gnashing my teeth in my fear and self-pity. Life is hard, life is struggle. I accept that. In fact, I embrace it whole-heartedly. Without the bad, you cannot fully appreciate the good. Without the trials, you cannot gain strength and wisdom or appreciate the fountains of these that you already have.
So, after much soul-searching and praying I have made a decision. I am going to be happy. I will be happy even in trial and tribulation because they let me know that I am alive and that better times are ahead. I choose happiness. Praise be to God.
...And as of now, I am done. Yes, life is still stressful. There is the potential for some unbelievable nastiness still, but I am done. I am done running, stressing, fretting, and gnashing my teeth in my fear and self-pity. Life is hard, life is struggle. I accept that. In fact, I embrace it whole-heartedly. Without the bad, you cannot fully appreciate the good. Without the trials, you cannot gain strength and wisdom or appreciate the fountains of these that you already have.
So, after much soul-searching and praying I have made a decision. I am going to be happy. I will be happy even in trial and tribulation because they let me know that I am alive and that better times are ahead. I choose happiness. Praise be to God.