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what are all those saying?
you reap what you sew?
what goes around comes around?
or that golden rule...
treat others how you want to be treated.
i'm a big fan of the concept that you get what you deserve.
it feels good to not care.
but it also feels good to actually care about someone, even though i'm really bad at showing it.
this week has been so unusual for me.
within the last 7 days i've felt incredibly guilty and awkward on two seperate occasions. and both conversations were about things that have past. things that could have, or should have been. and i guess feelings that i hurt that i didn't even know existed.
appearantly i'm a heartless jerk.
and even conversations about the present i say harsh things that i don't mean because i'm scared of being happy. how fucking stupid is that?
you reap what you sew?
what goes around comes around?
or that golden rule...
treat others how you want to be treated.
i'm a big fan of the concept that you get what you deserve.
it feels good to not care.
but it also feels good to actually care about someone, even though i'm really bad at showing it.
this week has been so unusual for me.
within the last 7 days i've felt incredibly guilty and awkward on two seperate occasions. and both conversations were about things that have past. things that could have, or should have been. and i guess feelings that i hurt that i didn't even know existed.
appearantly i'm a heartless jerk.
and even conversations about the present i say harsh things that i don't mean because i'm scared of being happy. how fucking stupid is that?