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fuck.
i had this whole entry written out and stupidly clicked out of it.
the feeling i had at the beginning of the entry i just tried to write was kind of...bitter. but towards the end i was overwhelmed with happiness, so it will be hard to recreate what the entry said initially but i think i want to write it out.
even though my feelings are incredibly hurt, or were, i'm not even pissed off. i'm way more sad that people can just toss things aside like they are no big deal.
i have no hard feelings what so ever. mostly because i know i didnt do a n y t h i n g.
honestly i hope this blows over and gets scratched off as no more than some silly misunderstanding, we'll cross our fingers right? ha
the bart family went to las vegas today and i tagged along. it was really...cool.
in the car ride i pretty much got this strong sense of what i want to do with my life. it was exciting finally KNOWING. at least, thinking i know. sometimes i really forget how young i am. we ate at this amazinnnng cafe. seriously, the best food ever.
my sleep schedule is going to be so messed up because i slept off and on all day.
i love seeing people that no matter how long its been since the last time they've seen you will be soo excited. every day, once a week, a few times a month....time doesn't matter. they love you and you looove them. it really feels nice.
it's really easy to take people for granted when you don't see them a lot. i'm going to try really hard not to let myself do that to people anymore.
today i hypothetically betted on a football game and won. it was kind of fun.
rosie was in my mind practically all weekend. and on saturday night i honestly felt like we had just hung out a few days ago. it didn't feel like she's been gone forever, it was like we just talked.
say it aint so.
it's weird how light i feel right now.
like i can run for hours.
haha i'm probably delusional.
to be continuted...i think i want a shake and fries.
i had this whole entry written out and stupidly clicked out of it.
the feeling i had at the beginning of the entry i just tried to write was kind of...bitter. but towards the end i was overwhelmed with happiness, so it will be hard to recreate what the entry said initially but i think i want to write it out.
even though my feelings are incredibly hurt, or were, i'm not even pissed off. i'm way more sad that people can just toss things aside like they are no big deal.
i have no hard feelings what so ever. mostly because i know i didnt do a n y t h i n g.
honestly i hope this blows over and gets scratched off as no more than some silly misunderstanding, we'll cross our fingers right? ha
the bart family went to las vegas today and i tagged along. it was really...cool.
in the car ride i pretty much got this strong sense of what i want to do with my life. it was exciting finally KNOWING. at least, thinking i know. sometimes i really forget how young i am. we ate at this amazinnnng cafe. seriously, the best food ever.
my sleep schedule is going to be so messed up because i slept off and on all day.
i love seeing people that no matter how long its been since the last time they've seen you will be soo excited. every day, once a week, a few times a month....time doesn't matter. they love you and you looove them. it really feels nice.
it's really easy to take people for granted when you don't see them a lot. i'm going to try really hard not to let myself do that to people anymore.
today i hypothetically betted on a football game and won. it was kind of fun.
rosie was in my mind practically all weekend. and on saturday night i honestly felt like we had just hung out a few days ago. it didn't feel like she's been gone forever, it was like we just talked.
say it aint so.
it's weird how light i feel right now.
like i can run for hours.
haha i'm probably delusional.
to be continuted...i think i want a shake and fries.