3:00 am
With time comes healing. Sometimes i just wish that life was not so difficult. I have been bruised and broken. When i felt that i was at my lowest, to my surprise there was still room to fall. Just when the sun starts to raise above the horizon, clouds roll in. The sun is always in the distance, yet never within reach lately. At night my mind does not seem to settle. Thoughts surface bringing the pain and the tears. I feel the tear brush against my cheek. A single tear makes it journey relying on something, my cheek, then falls off to be all alone. so similar to my feelings. I may not make sense. then again nothing ever does in my life. I have such a problem with trusting and love. I have let so many people in. Bonds never last though. Assurance just does not exist. Who am i, does anyone want me? how do i show people the real me with the tension of letting someone in. I dont know what to do anymore. SO many nights i lay my face in my palms and cry. cry because im hurt. im lost. im scared. im alone. the reasons are countless, yet i only share on "paper".