why

Feb 12, 2007 00:00

seriously i just dont get it anymore i like a guy and i think they like me back but then idkk!!
then my friend seems to be lately getting all the guys i liked or like it its kinda pissing me off and the sad this is she is only an 8th grader
so this one boy messes me up totally
he pretends to like just to get his way with me and of course i fall for it
but sadly i end up thinkly i like him knowing that i shouldnt and he pisses my offf my getting a girlfriend and shitt but most of all he is one of the guys that is talking to my friend i just dont get it honestly i mean he made me cryy soo manyy times and like i still am hurt when i think about i mean i was soo stupid and naive to think i actualy liked him and i just kept believing the bullshit he fed me i should have been smarter i should have listened more carefully to my friends i should have done soo many things differently
i dont get it i wish that sumtimes things would have happened differently cuz right now so many things are going wrong i know that they person to blame is myself and i honestly dont know what do anymore
i really like this one and have for a really long time but nothing ever happens and he knows i have feelings for me and then he gets mad at me cuz i move on and he doesnt i mean that just doesnt make any sense to me i mean if he likes me he should do sumthing about it i cant just sit here and wait forever for him i mean i really really like him and he knows i care bout himm so much but yet nothing it bugs me soo much knowing nothings going to happen and people say then why dont u do sumthing but its hard cuz of our situation it just bugs me so much
then is thing with one of my friends she will probably read this and i dont care anymore
i mean i hate thee fact that we arent close anymore but the way she acts gets on my nerves she acts better than everyone. she talks bout other people and their insecurities but she seems to be really insecure because she puts down almost everyone
yeah she is being honest and she doesnt care what other people thing but she has to realize that the people she talks about are jsut humans and she hurts them with the mean things she says the sad thing is she knows it and does it more sumtimes just because she likes to do it adn honestly i just cant stand that about her
yeah i put up with it before but after our misunderstanding i realized that it is just too much for me

things are right are justt soo cofusing honestly i hate chaminade and always have thanks to the selected few who i can honestly say are my friends have helped me get through it if wasnt for them i probably would be more miserable.

lately i get this feeling that i am losing everything and everyone i care about i mean i yell at my rents more than ever and cant get along with them and with friends i feel just like i am losing a whole bunch of em

my supposedlyy bessstttestttiee friend doesnt even have time for me anymorre and it hurts cuz we used to talk everyyweekend and made time for each other but now he is too busy and ignores me most of the time i try and act nice offer a simple hello try to give me a hug but he literly is just pushing me away and acting like we never knew each other

i just wish that me and him could talk and figure out wats going on with us
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