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Everybody and their mom is studying abroad. I hate the feeling of being left behind, but the worst part is that I don't WANT to study abroad. I just feel like I should because everyone else is doing it. So I don't think I should be trying to do it just because I'm envious.
In all honesty, I didn't feel this way until Mo got into Haas and decided he wants to go to Egypt for a year. I'm not the kind of person that would stop him. I just feel insanely jealous and I feel like he's trying to take something away from me by leaving because he's my best friend. I know it's stupid. It might not even happen. It just makes me really nervous and really anxious.
After college I just need to get the hell out of here. I just want to go. I want to go to Dharamsala or something and just do what I want. I don't want to study anywhere, even if the classes would be really easy. I just want to go there to be there and to do what I want to do when it feels right.
Fuck. I need to take a year off. I need to get some money first. Maybe I can move to Iceland and sell fish tacos.
Why is it so much easier for everyone else to leave everything behind? Why are other people so much better at following their dreams?
In all honesty, I didn't feel this way until Mo got into Haas and decided he wants to go to Egypt for a year. I'm not the kind of person that would stop him. I just feel insanely jealous and I feel like he's trying to take something away from me by leaving because he's my best friend. I know it's stupid. It might not even happen. It just makes me really nervous and really anxious.
After college I just need to get the hell out of here. I just want to go. I want to go to Dharamsala or something and just do what I want. I don't want to study anywhere, even if the classes would be really easy. I just want to go there to be there and to do what I want to do when it feels right.
Fuck. I need to take a year off. I need to get some money first. Maybe I can move to Iceland and sell fish tacos.
Why is it so much easier for everyone else to leave everything behind? Why are other people so much better at following their dreams?