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I'm so in love with life right now!!! It's amazing.
I'm writing this short story about a human being with the life span of a mayfly, using Kafka's metamorphosis as a rough, inverted template.
Tonight I have seen/spoken to/ran into so many people that I have lost touch with and it was actually refreshing just to talk to some of them. And it makes me really happy that people seem to be going in the direction that they want to be going, at least for now. For example, Robert the ex-Antioch improv team captain and actor extraordinaire moved to Hollywood and is now getting movie gigs and working on finding an agent. Greg's getting into the sound system business, people are studying abroad in Africa, etc.. It's awesome. And it's also reassuring to feel that I am right where I want to be with myself right now. I don't care that I will soon be staring uncertainty in the face because that just leaves new windows open. Yes I think I will be just fine.
However, I've also forgotten how much I hate to be around my mom this time of year. She's stressed out 365 days a year but Christmas tops them all. She has 3 days to simply unveil her week-long preparations but she is still freaking out. She even told me that I can expect to be dictated to and yelled out during Christmas day preparations. I thought my dad could have been exaggerating when he said she "doesn't know how to take a freaking break" but now it's quite clear. PLEASE DON'T LET ME END UP LIKE HER. I can already see it in myself in a lot of ways. It's like someone is chanting "anal" in my ear while I sleep. I really wish I could somehow kill that part of myself without losing motivation for school.
I also want to thank VJ for making me that stupid calendar which is making me really, really happy.
I'm writing this short story about a human being with the life span of a mayfly, using Kafka's metamorphosis as a rough, inverted template.
Tonight I have seen/spoken to/ran into so many people that I have lost touch with and it was actually refreshing just to talk to some of them. And it makes me really happy that people seem to be going in the direction that they want to be going, at least for now. For example, Robert the ex-Antioch improv team captain and actor extraordinaire moved to Hollywood and is now getting movie gigs and working on finding an agent. Greg's getting into the sound system business, people are studying abroad in Africa, etc.. It's awesome. And it's also reassuring to feel that I am right where I want to be with myself right now. I don't care that I will soon be staring uncertainty in the face because that just leaves new windows open. Yes I think I will be just fine.
However, I've also forgotten how much I hate to be around my mom this time of year. She's stressed out 365 days a year but Christmas tops them all. She has 3 days to simply unveil her week-long preparations but she is still freaking out. She even told me that I can expect to be dictated to and yelled out during Christmas day preparations. I thought my dad could have been exaggerating when he said she "doesn't know how to take a freaking break" but now it's quite clear. PLEASE DON'T LET ME END UP LIKE HER. I can already see it in myself in a lot of ways. It's like someone is chanting "anal" in my ear while I sleep. I really wish I could somehow kill that part of myself without losing motivation for school.
I also want to thank VJ for making me that stupid calendar which is making me really, really happy.