She Paints Me Blue
Its been forever and a day since Ive been on here.
[Everything's changed]
I have alot to write so I'm just going to ramble...think fast <3
My dad's getting baptized tomorrow.It's going to be so akward sitting there in a church with all of his side of the family that I dont know and rarely see. I hope he doesnt get all emotional and cry or have a speech, that would make me feel so unbelievably uncomfortable. But, I think it is pretty kool how he's found what makes him happy, or feel better. I'm asking my friend Danny to go with me. I feel more comfortable with him than i do with anyone else. I have this weird thing about sleeping infront of people. Snoring, talking, and having that weird, stupid gaping mouthed look on your face are I guess the reasons lol. And going swimming. I feel like an ogre in front of other people when I'm in a bathingsuit. In front of Danny i fall asleep in my baithing suit and he makes me feel beautiful. but anywho... Friday sucked balls. Some guy said I looked like an ogre...haha...ok its funny, i know, but when you hear it said to you and the persons dead serious you, or well I, felt like a huge pile of disgusting shet. And then some other guy said something, and made everything worse. He didnt know, so its not like Im gonna be like Fuck Him you know, but still... I started to cry, and i felt like such a wuss. So i went out of class and just walked around. I tried calling Danny but no answer...that was the worst thing all day.
I have bought my Rocket Summer tickets finally. My mom bought them online for 26. If you haven't heard them you really should listen to them...with an open mind.
Stuff with me and my parents has cooled off alot. Me and my mom actually talk like we know eachother now. She tells me things shes done instead of lying to make sure i dont do the same...Me and my dad are still the same, so its good. My brother...I dont know what to think... Hes going into the Marines. Personal Opinion: STUPID. But who knows why he's doing it. I almost think he thinks its like the video games. I dont think he really knows what hes gotten himself into. My cousin's in the Army and in the newsletter they get it said that there's more than likely going to be a Draft...So either way, even if he tried to back out he could be drafted anyways... I think its just a waste. He's worked his ass off his whole life to get good grades and good college refferals and he goes to the Marines. I guess Im kind of bitter :/ , like i get mad because it seems selfish...ah nvm...new subject.
I need to get tickets to a Something Corporate concert.
I need to get back to being friends with Sam.
I'm tired and I'm going to sleep.
<3 Laun