this is what sad feels like.
The Girl. Likes to party. Likes to drink. Enjoys the company of guys. She has a boyfriend. A very serious boyfriend.
Things happen when she drinks. She was approached and she didn't resist. [All the while, she thought of her boyfriend.] The problem is: she can't say no when she's interested. She feels as though she'll miss out on something. And this is always the case. What she has is never good enough... she's always searching for more. She can never just stop and BE.
* * * * *
I tell him E V E R Y T H I N G. I could have lied about last night, but I can't lie to him. I had to explain myself. I had to tell him about the boy who held me.
"I need to end it before I hurt him anymore. Its better this way." I'm scared to walk away from all that we had. He gave me so much, a feeling of security that I've never had before. He was is my best friend. I loved love him.
...I have to say good bye. Its too hard. And its my fault.
Things happen when she drinks. She was approached and she didn't resist. [All the while, she thought of her boyfriend.] The problem is: she can't say no when she's interested. She feels as though she'll miss out on something. And this is always the case. What she has is never good enough... she's always searching for more. She can never just stop and BE.
* * * * *
I tell him E V E R Y T H I N G. I could have lied about last night, but I can't lie to him. I had to explain myself. I had to tell him about the boy who held me.
"I need to end it before I hurt him anymore. Its better this way." I'm scared to walk away from all that we had. He gave me so much, a feeling of security that I've never had before. He was is my best friend. I loved love him.
...I have to say good bye. Its too hard. And its my fault.