a need to lie

[keeconk]

i'm not good at lying.. really.. i'm not..
i seriously need to learn how to lie..
i js reallise that sometimes being honest could hurt people around you..
i don't want to hurt anybody..
especially those i cherish the most..
especially the person i love the most..
i need to shut my big mouth up..

i hate myself for doing what i did..
and i realise sorry is not enough..

i never feel so god damn guilty in my entire life..