perhaps i should seak help

[keeblercczy]

apathy consumes me.
life slowly dissintegrating, fading.
i've lost all hope, all desire, purpose and determination in life.
no life raft to hold on to.
tests show my problems...... is it all just in my head?
all i want is to be happy, restored to my original state of mind.
maybe, it's who i am.
and always will be.
i want to cry..... but find myself unable to.
i'm tired..... yet i don't want to sleep.
i want to lash out and scream, let it out somehow....... but i know i won't.
the list grows and grows, there's so much more.