...To Afraid...
I wonder if it's normal to be this afraid...
And afraid of what?
I'm not even certain.
But I do know that I've never felt as safe as I did in your arms.
Something about the familiarity...
The warmth in knowing that they would always be there to hold me,
Comfort me,
And protect me.
Something inside of them held the power to make even my deepest fears subside.
Now where do I turn when you're pushing me away?
Where can I find solace, if not in your smile?
Where can I find love, if not in your eyes?
Where can I find peace, if not in your soul?
And where can I find my place, if not in your heart?
When all I've ever known has failed me, what can I believe as truth?
When my heart has stopped beating how do I stay alive to make it through another day without you?
Help me.
Because I'm afraid I'll drown in my tears and no one will be there to pull me out. Being alone is too hard a concept for me to grasp.
So I will lie to myself again and again until I'm convinced
You're still in love with me and you just don't realize it.
And I cant help but cringe as I realize it...
As the truth somes out and the tears fall, stinging worse than they ever have.
The hole in my heart that I try so desperately to fill with memories
Begins to open up, and in it fall my hopes and dreams,
Along with all of the stars in the sky.
With nothing left to wish on, and no reason to anyway
Because all wishing ever got me was a broken heart and a shattered dream.
Please tell me it's ok to feel this afraid.
And afraid of what?
Afraid of losing you forever.
And I find myself wondering if I already have...
You can break me all you want,
But you can never take away from me the idea of us together in the end.
I'm afraid to let you go because
You are the only source of true happiness I have found in the world.
My definition of love lies buried in your eyes
And more than anything else, I'm afraid that if I look too long
I'll see that it has disappeared.
No one ever taught me how to stop caring or stop loving,
I just assumed I would feel this way forever.
And what more is there for me when I'm too afraid to feel?
It's older, from a few months ago. I had it written on a piece of paper that I had been meaning to get into a journal and then Krystle gave me a beautiful one for Christmas. <3 her. So I changed it up a bit, and decided to post...
And afraid of what?
I'm not even certain.
But I do know that I've never felt as safe as I did in your arms.
Something about the familiarity...
The warmth in knowing that they would always be there to hold me,
Comfort me,
And protect me.
Something inside of them held the power to make even my deepest fears subside.
Now where do I turn when you're pushing me away?
Where can I find solace, if not in your smile?
Where can I find love, if not in your eyes?
Where can I find peace, if not in your soul?
And where can I find my place, if not in your heart?
When all I've ever known has failed me, what can I believe as truth?
When my heart has stopped beating how do I stay alive to make it through another day without you?
Help me.
Because I'm afraid I'll drown in my tears and no one will be there to pull me out. Being alone is too hard a concept for me to grasp.
So I will lie to myself again and again until I'm convinced
You're still in love with me and you just don't realize it.
And I cant help but cringe as I realize it...
As the truth somes out and the tears fall, stinging worse than they ever have.
The hole in my heart that I try so desperately to fill with memories
Begins to open up, and in it fall my hopes and dreams,
Along with all of the stars in the sky.
With nothing left to wish on, and no reason to anyway
Because all wishing ever got me was a broken heart and a shattered dream.
Please tell me it's ok to feel this afraid.
And afraid of what?
Afraid of losing you forever.
And I find myself wondering if I already have...
You can break me all you want,
But you can never take away from me the idea of us together in the end.
I'm afraid to let you go because
You are the only source of true happiness I have found in the world.
My definition of love lies buried in your eyes
And more than anything else, I'm afraid that if I look too long
I'll see that it has disappeared.
No one ever taught me how to stop caring or stop loving,
I just assumed I would feel this way forever.
And what more is there for me when I'm too afraid to feel?
It's older, from a few months ago. I had it written on a piece of paper that I had been meaning to get into a journal and then Krystle gave me a beautiful one for Christmas. <3 her. So I changed it up a bit, and decided to post...