I haven't updated for a while :/
Okay so ever since the beginning of this month, I've been excited about this group I audition for. Basically if any of you know Kei Pham, better known on youtube as danceandshutup, you might have seen his notice on soompi about creating an all boy group. So I auditioned and stuff, but I didn't get it :/ so now I'm on a super reflective phase, looking back on how horrid I am I singing, and how I could better, but y'know what, I can't :/ I have no form of improving because:
1. I can't practice and eventually get better, i have no direction. 2. I can't afford a voice coach, which would help me immensely in my singing capabilities.
And, on further reflection, I actually have no specialty in anything. I mean this past week I've looked back on how my goals continually changed. At first it was just drawing. So much drawing. I actually wanted to become a manga artist really badly. Then it was shot down around last year. But before it shot down I took up languages. I started off in 7th with Japanese, then progressed to Mandarin, Spanish, and now Korean to present date. But since last summer I have done any form of studying. My divination and occult kick started last year, then died as quickly as it started. But then I moved onto singing in 8th/9th, and continued on to present date. I don't specialize in anything. And my main focus so far has been on my singing and dancing. To my understanding these are all the things that are apparently "wrong" with my voice: -No emotion -Singing to low or not relatively in the right pitch of the song. -No broad vocal range -Can't stay relatively close to the melody sometimes because of being indecisive about what pitch to go in -Never "belting" it -Cannot find/sing in falsetto, even though capable
There's more to this, but I'm just going to cut it off here.
Now most likely my friends in my cover group who have LJ with probably think I'm just over dramatic or w/e if they read this, but, 'yknow, I am. I have been told in the past I'm a selfish defensive spoiled obnoxiously annoying talentless brat, and I do say, all is true. So now I'm going to go sulk in my self pity and I go cry a pool of black acid. -ケビヌ
1. I can't practice and eventually get better, i have no direction. 2. I can't afford a voice coach, which would help me immensely in my singing capabilities.
And, on further reflection, I actually have no specialty in anything. I mean this past week I've looked back on how my goals continually changed. At first it was just drawing. So much drawing. I actually wanted to become a manga artist really badly. Then it was shot down around last year. But before it shot down I took up languages. I started off in 7th with Japanese, then progressed to Mandarin, Spanish, and now Korean to present date. But since last summer I have done any form of studying. My divination and occult kick started last year, then died as quickly as it started. But then I moved onto singing in 8th/9th, and continued on to present date. I don't specialize in anything. And my main focus so far has been on my singing and dancing. To my understanding these are all the things that are apparently "wrong" with my voice: -No emotion -Singing to low or not relatively in the right pitch of the song. -No broad vocal range -Can't stay relatively close to the melody sometimes because of being indecisive about what pitch to go in -Never "belting" it -Cannot find/sing in falsetto, even though capable
There's more to this, but I'm just going to cut it off here.
Now most likely my friends in my cover group who have LJ with probably think I'm just over dramatic or w/e if they read this, but, 'yknow, I am. I have been told in the past I'm a selfish defensive spoiled obnoxiously annoying talentless brat, and I do say, all is true. So now I'm going to go sulk in my self pity and I go cry a pool of black acid. -ケビヌ