[oneshot]I'll Be Back
Title: I’ll Be Back
Pairing: Arioka Daiki x Yamada Ryosuke (AriYama); Daiki’s POV
Author: Keanne (keannegirl01 )
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Arioka Daiki as back from America when he left from Japan and this time around… he will win Yamada Ryosuke’s heart.
A/N: I never thought I would do a sequel for My Lifetime Regret in 1:01. If you haven’t read that, please drop by and enjoy reading!
Dedicated to: Clau (daikimon )
Sure it hurt me so much when I left Japan two years ago. It wasn’t the place I missed. It wasn’t my friends. It wasn’t my school either. It was just the only person and it was Yamada Ryosuke. Two years had passed and I wonder how he had been.
For those two years I wasn’t around with him, there wasn’t a day I didn’t think of that person. It pains me… it pains me so much that I can no longer hold him, see his smiles, talk with him and show him my love.
I left that day with a broken heart. I didn’t tell him we were leaving. I know he won’t care a thing about it though. It would just pain me even more. I left without saying a word. But it was fine… for I let him know that I love him.
I wonder how was he doing right now? Is he fine? Is he still the smiling person I knew? More like… did he even miss me? Did he even miss me the way I miss him? I miss him so much that I long to be near him every time. I cry every night. I cry my heart out and my mother would just keep on telling me everything will be alright.
Yes, everything will be alright. I have faith in him. I have faith in both of us. I know we were destined to be together right from the start. I just… I just needed to leave. My father wasn’t feeling well. He needed to be cured. And I knew right then, in two years time, I will be back.
“Dai-chan, we need to leave for America.” That was what my mother told me. It was like a bomb was dropped in front of me when she said that. Did I hear it right? We were leaving? Can’t I just tell her that I want to be left here? For Yamada? My throat hurts because I wasn’t able to tell her that. I care so much about my family. I care for Yama-chan. I was torn in between. What was really for the best?
She told me we were still young and time will surely come to us. So I did the thing that was the most right for me. I left with my family and took care of my father.
As always, Yamada and I spent our time during lunch. I didn’t tell him the thing that bothered me. I just silently sit there, cherishing the moment, holding in the tears that badly wants to escape.
It would just be my selfishness if I will tell him to wait for me, right? I want him to be happy and not just wait for me. I don’t want him to wait for me just because I told him so. Deep in my heart, I was hoping for him to do so… because he loves me. That pure love I wanted from the start.
When I was in the airport, I was idiotly thinking he would come to me, running and rushing all the way. Panting his breath, he will tell me “I love you too…”. But that time, I realized that was just a mere dream of me. I sat on the plane with tears in my eyes. I whispered, “I’ll be back.” And I was determined to make that come true.
Although he declined my love when I confessed to him, this time around, I will surely win his heart. I will win his heart and make him mine. Mine alone, forever.
And now, I am here. In this airport again. The airport that was the witness of my secret promise to myself. I am back… for real. And I am now going to make his heart mine.
Without even thinking, I went to his place. I knew where it was because he introduced me to his parents too. That was one of the days that made me so happy. I felt like I was a boyfriend back then.
I took a rest for a while in the taxi and had my head calm down. For God’s sake, I am shaking inside. I am nervous for I haven’t seen him for years. When I see him, I will surely welcome him with a big hug and lots of kisses. No questions asked.
It was as though time flies so fast and I am now here in front of their house. I took my baggage and silently walked to the door. I tried whispering to myself to let my heart calm down. My knees were even shaking! With a deep breath, I knocked to the door…
But before I could even do that, I noticed two persons on their garden not that far from where I stood. I watched at them and somehow I couldn’t manage to get my sight away from the two. They were just perfect for each other to see. Holding hands with their body pressed to each other. The hand of the tall guy was on the smaller guy’s waist and the one for the latter had his hand on the neck of the other guy.
It seemed as though my world crumbled right upon me. Because I realized that was the guy I loved. The guy that was purely the reason why I came back. Yamada Ryosuke. He was the guy kissing with the other one. That must be his boyfriend, perhaps.
With my mouth slightly open, I closed my eyes. I swallowed hard and ignored the tears that started forming in my eyes that made my sight a bit blurry. With a heavy heart, I walked away from that place.
But my stupid tears just wanted to escape. They started flowing endlessly in my cheeks while I was standing in the sidewalk. I covered my mouth to prevent my sobs from escaping. I wiped my tears harshly and called for a taxi.
When I got inside, I leaned my head back and whispered, “I’m back…”
Right then I realized, Yamada Ryosuke and Daiki Arioka were never meant to be right from the start.