10 Things
10 things about today.
1. This is the light streaming through the tree in front of my house before I take off for LA with my kiddo.
2. I woke up in a state of paralysis wanting an "away day," but now I'm up and moving.
3. My daughter will be very proud to see my art on exhibit at Beyond Baroque. This is a very big deal and positive thing. I will accept it as I accept the totality of me.
4. I am seriously thinking about stepping WAY BACK from what I do in the public. I am looking to my retirement in five years when I will be able to move back to the North Coast of California and live a quiet peaceful life to the sound of crashing waves and hiding inside a blanket of fog.
5. The cats don't want me to leave, but I keep reassuring them that I will be back.
6. My cancer can be removed by the knife. I found this out yesterday. I'm getting it removed on March 1 though may need to postpone due to missing so much work for my art show.
7. The things I really want to do before I disappear: 1) Finish my Dirt Yards at Night; 2) Compile my poetry into a book; 3) Compile my film writing into a book.
8. I will only do things that make me feel happy and calm when I have a choice. Moving forward in my life, I will take a cleaver to things that make me feel bad.
9. I am grateful for everyone who has supported my creativity and my voice in my life. Thank you. I have spent my whole adult life trying to be heard after spending my youth in invisibility. Thank you for hearing me.
10. Off I go. I don't know where I'm going in my life other than doing what I need to do, and it's okay to not know.