Checking In. Moving forward.

[kdotdammit]

I keep saying things like “I want to get my voice back” or “I want to get back on my game” or “I am going to make a comeback” or other things like that. Note that the one word these phrases share in common is “back.” Maybe that’s the problem. Maybe back isn’t where I need to be going

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[wuweibaby]

That's an awesome guitar. I almost bought a used AlleyKat (same guitar but no Bigsby) a few months ago but it wasn't the color I wanted. I changed my mind because it was a sweet guitar but it was sold the day before I went back for it.

[kdotdammit]

Ooooh I am LOVING IT SO MUCH. I just got back from my guitar lesson, and my teacher showed me all about how it works. I can't wait to get off work and make MUSIC or some variation on that. It is a sweet beastie. :) You inspire me!!!

[egg_shell]

I've been thinking similar thoughts myself - I put a link to your post here - hope you don't mind.

[kdotdammit]

Thank you! I am really happy you shared. It seems like such a simple formula. Speaking of which, I had a HUGE watershed today about how to move to tomorrow. Very difficult but will make me healthier. XO

[maxauburn]

There really IS no getting back.

I fell apart badly when George died, and, although I have reassembled myself into something that kind of looks like me, it really isn't me anymore: the person I was with George died when he died.

The person I am now only looks like me, but in many ways, it isn't me at all.

And it truly is a one day at a time kind of deal, as you have mentioned.

[kdotdammit]

Yes, this is so strange, how our whole cosmology changes. Today I had to deal with an extremely difficult realization in my post-dead-dad world --- very very hard, but I'm going to move forward.

I can only take things literally one minute at a time right now, or I just get too overwhelmed by everything.

Thank you for being here. XO