A return to narcissistic bitching
Wow, first entry in almost a year. A recap would be pointless, so I'm just going to pick these up as though nothing ever changed. Well, one recap I guess, since those are "in fashion" during these weeks of the year. After that I'll try to stick to droll observations and funny reports of local (me) news.
Someone told me this week that odd age years are always the good ones, and I've had a few very impressive ones of those. But 2005, the year of age 20, is probably the winner in terms of total contentment and satisfaction with my lot in life. Being a college senior is the way to go, man...everyone should try to be a senior in college for a minimum of 2 years. I was a fool for keeping the status for only one. The summer was...well, the best way to describe it is this. When I tell people that home feels different now than it used to, they ask me whether it's different-good, different-bad, or different-the-same. My answer is that this summer was the most enjoyable summer I've ever had and I've never been more comfortable and settled, so it's hard for anything different not to be worse. But I'm figuring that part out.
New school is a crazy experience, testicle-shrinking cold aside, and I at least now know that all the theoretical questions about what I was doing with my future have a pretty good answer...via totally arbitrary and irresponsible decision-making, I have stumbled upon an education, career path, and current location that actually all seem quite appealing. Of course, I would prefer the career path of being rich and sitting on my ass doing nothing, but I do place an extraordinary value on leisure. Many a law school colleague has complimented by unparalleled abilities in killing time, in-class multitasking, and general internet self-entertainment.
Things sort of peaked at my birthday in October (which was the weekend of utter awesome) and things have settled to reality. School got hard, hard like nothing has ever challenged me so hard, very fast, and motivation got very low about as fast. But it's ephemeral, I know, and I don't take it as too dire a sign. Honeymoon period for school has concluded too, so the usual neuroses and layers of dissatisfaction have reared their heads as well. Coming back home has been weirder than expected as well, in ways that I have thus far been completely unable to properly express, so don't even bother asking at this point. So the last 2 1/2 months of the year were a bit more iffy, I guess, but 2005 was still pretty respectable over-all...one of my better years, I'm sure. 2004 - 2005/ages 19 - 20 have been a really good run, I suppose I can't complain too much if I'm suddenly forced to deal with things like effort and responsibility. Still, August sounds plum nice right about now. I can't wait to retire my heavy wool coat for the season.
Someone told me this week that odd age years are always the good ones, and I've had a few very impressive ones of those. But 2005, the year of age 20, is probably the winner in terms of total contentment and satisfaction with my lot in life. Being a college senior is the way to go, man...everyone should try to be a senior in college for a minimum of 2 years. I was a fool for keeping the status for only one. The summer was...well, the best way to describe it is this. When I tell people that home feels different now than it used to, they ask me whether it's different-good, different-bad, or different-the-same. My answer is that this summer was the most enjoyable summer I've ever had and I've never been more comfortable and settled, so it's hard for anything different not to be worse. But I'm figuring that part out.
New school is a crazy experience, testicle-shrinking cold aside, and I at least now know that all the theoretical questions about what I was doing with my future have a pretty good answer...via totally arbitrary and irresponsible decision-making, I have stumbled upon an education, career path, and current location that actually all seem quite appealing. Of course, I would prefer the career path of being rich and sitting on my ass doing nothing, but I do place an extraordinary value on leisure. Many a law school colleague has complimented by unparalleled abilities in killing time, in-class multitasking, and general internet self-entertainment.
Things sort of peaked at my birthday in October (which was the weekend of utter awesome) and things have settled to reality. School got hard, hard like nothing has ever challenged me so hard, very fast, and motivation got very low about as fast. But it's ephemeral, I know, and I don't take it as too dire a sign. Honeymoon period for school has concluded too, so the usual neuroses and layers of dissatisfaction have reared their heads as well. Coming back home has been weirder than expected as well, in ways that I have thus far been completely unable to properly express, so don't even bother asking at this point. So the last 2 1/2 months of the year were a bit more iffy, I guess, but 2005 was still pretty respectable over-all...one of my better years, I'm sure. 2004 - 2005/ages 19 - 20 have been a really good run, I suppose I can't complain too much if I'm suddenly forced to deal with things like effort and responsibility. Still, August sounds plum nice right about now. I can't wait to retire my heavy wool coat for the season.