My whole life, shambles...
I didn't want to hurt you Matt...I really didn't, I loved you, so much, but I just wasn't ready.....
I cried for you, so much, I wanted to love you, but not hurt you...
It's my fault, all of it, I should have shut the fuck up and said nothing, that way you wouldn't be hurt, and we could still be friends, although I hope we still are..
From now on, I probobly won't update this journal except very important events, I just can't look back at these memories, hurts too much, and I hope that you'll forgive me, Matt, I still love you, but I'm not sure that I'm ready for anything yet..
;_;...
I cried for you, so much, I wanted to love you, but not hurt you...
It's my fault, all of it, I should have shut the fuck up and said nothing, that way you wouldn't be hurt, and we could still be friends, although I hope we still are..
From now on, I probobly won't update this journal except very important events, I just can't look back at these memories, hurts too much, and I hope that you'll forgive me, Matt, I still love you, but I'm not sure that I'm ready for anything yet..
;_;...