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In your life, there will always be people that stand out. The people that made you feel safe, loved, truly cared about. The people that made everything OK when your with them, and everything fun. Becuase I've moved around so much growing up, I've never stayed in touch with people for more than 4 years. I've always moved or they moved or something has happened. I've always blown it off when I miss people and say it's nothing I could do. Not my fault I moved, right?
When I think of the one person I miss most, the answer is so clear to me it's scary. He's always been my what-if guy, and was at one point my best friend. When I realized there was no reason we were no longer in touch, I got kind of sad. At first I was like, oh well, he goes to a different school. Bullshit. My best friend goes to a different school, and I can make plenty of time for her. Oh well, he's going to college next year. So what, UK is like an hour away. Besides, school doesn't start for 3 weeks.
I guess you can't just always do the what-ifs or if-onlys. Sometimes you just have to shut the fuck up and pick up a damn phone. I would just love to know before he leaves that it's ok. I want to feel completly, totally, 100% safe just one more time.